At the beginning of my pregnancy my insurance company matched me up with a retired L&D nurse...she called about once a month over the course of my pregnancy just to see how I was doing/answer any questions/give advice/etc. She called on Friday to see how I was feeling and how my delivery went and things like that.

After I gave her the shortened version my my L&D drama, she asked how I was feeling about the delivery and told me it was completely normal to be very down about my birth experience in the weeks after, especially in cases like mine, when things didn't go anywhere near plan.

My birth experience was nothing like I expected. I had a "birth wish list" but the Level 12 Back Labor + 2 failed epidurals + Massive PP Hemorrhage sort of threw it out the window. In the weeks leading up to his birth I tried to stay flexible in thinking about what could happen, so I wouldn't feel jipped if things didn't go so neatly. My number one priority was always to get us both through safely, regardless of how it had to happen (I even had a mental list of c-section pros, just in case).

While it was far from ideal, I didn't feel jipped by my experience. It's my story and his story and he's perfect and I'm healing well, and we both worked hard for him to get here.

But it did get me thinking about other women who were maybe a little more constrained in what they expected, and what kind of bitterness they might feel if things didn't go according to plan.

Did/do you have any regrets or bitterness about your birthing experience?