Are you ever ready to have a second? I guess I felt the same with having my first. I was excited, but scared to death at the same time. The logistics of having a second terrify me.

I have always pictured having 2 kids. I am an only child and although I had the best childhood, I knew I would want my children to have siblings.

My son is 17 months old now and is the best thing that has ever happened to me. If I wanted them to be close in age I really need to start to try for a second now-ish, and I am starting to feel a little ready, but at the same time not. I had a really hard time after my son was born. I went into a bad depression and fog for months. I just don't know if I want to relive through that again, especially so soon. Those first few months were very dark days for me. My husband feels the same, wants a second but doesn't want to see me go through it again. The cost of daycare is huge for 2. Basically my entire paycheck would be going to daycare, but I know for sure I would never want to be a SAHM. Can we figure out a way to make it work, yes, but not without sacrifices. Who doesn't make sacrifices for the kids, not anyone I know.

I don't even know why I am posting this... Maybe getting my thoughts out there...