Today, was my last day of student teaching. Finally, at 29, I am a college graduate!

Anyway, it was an incredibly emotional day. My kids and fellow team teachers made my day so special and I have never felt so loved. It was incredible.

However, at the end of the day, the principal saw that I gave all my classes lollipops as goodbye tokens and flipped out. She was really pissed. I felt awful. I'd love to get a job there and I feel like I ruined my chances.

So, at the end of the day, I called one of the other student teachers to talk to her about it. She went on to tell me that not only did the principal come in to personally say goodbye to her, gave her a hug, and told her to make sure she calls every couple weeks until a spot opens up. Also, she gave the kids candy IN FRONT of the principal and she didn't care! WTF?!

On top of all of that, the principal asked her if she could sit in on her county interview. She has made it a point to stop in for lesson observations (without the intern's request), and has made it very clear that she will have a job there.

I am incredibly happy for her. She is an amazing teacher, a sweet person, and a hard worker. She deserves it. I am so sad and jealous though!

I work my ass off. My team loves me and has advocated for me extensively. My kids love me and I have proof of how I worked extra with several of them to bring their grades up from previous quarters. I am a damn good teacher.

I recently had to speak with the principal because I set up the 8th grade service learning project and needed approval for something. At the meeting she asked me why I never bothered to advocate for myself or requested an interview. It was kind of snarky. I explained that I was under the impression that it was frowned upon to ask specific principals for interviews because we were supposed to go through the county, but that I would love the opportunity to interview with her. I even followed up with an email and a thoughtful thank you card. She never bothered to respond to either.

So now I am sitting here crying to myself. I worked so hard and it sucks to receive no recognition from her. I don't understand what the other intern did that I didn't.

Am I reading too much into this? Am I being overly sensitive due to pregnancy hormones and an overwhelming day? Or am I right in thinking that this is a very bad sign?