As some of you may know, I've had two miscarriages. Shortly after the first, I found out my cousin was pregnant and due about two weeks after I would have been. Now, a few weeks after my second, I just found out that her brother's wife (also my cousin, obviously) is pregnant and due a couple weeks before I would have been.

It's just so frustrating and upsetting. I hid them both from my FB newsfeed, because I know I'm not up for seeing their posts. I'm not angry or resentful of them, but I am angry and resentful at my situation. Things are actually looking good right now, in that doctors have figured out what's going on and we're in the process of formulating a game plan for going forward to prevent it happening again. But it's still hard and I can't help but feel like "seriously?! they couldn't have been due ANY OTHER TIME?!"

I'm not really looking for support here so much as advice. In those moment when you feel frustrated and down, and want to whine about how it's not fair, what do you do to redirect your thoughts? Focusing on how grateful I am that we're going to be able to move forward soon helps a little, but not a lot. Being happy for them isn't really helpful because I mostly need things to keep me from thinking about them right now. I'll be happy for them later when I'm not feeling so sad. Right now I need to take care of me. (And thankfully I'm not terribly close to either of them, so there's no obligation to be super supportive at this time, beyond normal congratulations.) I need help not letting my thoughts fall into a rut of negative resentful thinking.

ETA- Not sure if this is the logical place to post this, so if anyone has a suggestion for where it might make more sense, please let me know.