T won't sleep now. Used to, I would nurse him to sleep around 6:30pm, put him in his crib, and he would sleep until 5ish, in which I got up, put him in bed with me, and nursed him back to sleep.

Now after we are home from the hospital, he won't sleep. He goes down in his crib, but when he wakes up he won't sleep next to me. I tried putting him in his swing. No. I tried holding him in the recliner. No. He acts continuously uncomfortable and mad. I only could put him back in his crib on his belly and I'm sitting in the rocker letting him CIO.

I've sadly become more desensitized to his cries since he cried so much in the hospital. He also doesn't find comfort in me anymore like he used to. When I go to rub his back or adjust his paci he acts even angrier. I'm just so sad. My baby is not the same baby I had before all of this. I know we've only been home one day, but this kind of behavioral changes just doesn't seem like "adjusting" to me.

Also I feel like this is the last thing he needs is more feelings of abandonment. I may or may not be crying too.

I never thought I would do CIO. But here I am.