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no advice, just hugs to say that we are always here for support. and i love your honest, positive attitude!

Definitely! I feel like I'm riding a neverending emotional rollercoaster....

When I was dealing with it, I think my day to day happiness was like a rollercoaster. Some good days, some bad. Looking back, it definitely stressed me out and it showed in my crabbiness.

I feel my IF does stay on my mind and for that reason, I do think it affects my happiness. I am one of the few people in our friend groups who doesn't have kids, so I am also constantly aware from that standpoint. I try to stay positive that I will be a mom someday but yes, it affects my happiness.

@mrsjyw:

I suppose it does. Its something I definitely think of at least once on a daily basis.

Oh my goodness, yes. Especially while cycling. It is difficult to get your mind off of IF when you are constantly worrying about appointments, needles, and restrictions. Even while I wasn't cycling, it was constantly on my mind. I think some of the intensity comes from the fact that I was 34-35 when we discovered our issues. So I never felt like I had the luxury of taking a break.

Yes, it absolutely affected my day-to-day happiness. It probably didn't help that I'd been laid off right before starting treatments. It just felt like nothing in my life could go right.

Every cycle until the one I got pg I didn't respond well to the meds at first. So I was constantly in an out for ultrasounds and blood work, waiting for eggs to grow, and they wouldn't. So more meds, then back for a week or two of blood work and ultra sounds. It was exhausting. I can't even imagine what it would've been like if we'd done an IUI cycle, which at my RE requires much more monitoring.

I tried really hard to be happy, but I had plenty of breakdowns and days when I wondered how long I could keep doing it for. Luckily DH kept encouraging me to keep up with it and constantly told me how well he thought I was handling everything. I thought he was crazy, but it was still good to hear.

@Shutterbug: I'm not sure, my insurance was very confusing. I switched midway through treatment from a high deductible plan (SO much easier!) where everything was covered at a certain percentage. But then in January we switched to Harvard Pilgrim HMO and the people there were not very knowledgable.

I know that right before I got PG my RE had to lobby them to cover me for each cycle. According to their guidelines I was eligible (trying for more than 6 months, *NOT* otherwise healthy due to PCOS) and I got a letter saying I was approved for an IUI cycle. It was weird because I wasn't doing IUI, so I'm guessing they clumped it all together. But that was the cycle I got PG so we didn't need to continue treatments.

When I'm in a treatment cycle, it doesn't upset me too much because I get excited that maybe this is the one! But right now, I'm in a holding pattern (due to a recent move and general busyness) and probably won't get any treatment for months. So yeah, I'm thinking about it most days, and it does get me down on most days. But that doesn't mean I'm not really enjoying my time with my husband or excited for an upcoming trip, etc.