Hi all! I am new here and so happy to be joining you all. I wanted to find a place to share my experiences and hope to get some support through what is turning out to be the hardest experience of my adult life. I feel very alone and hopeless, some days worse than others, today feels like one of them!
My story/journey: I am 33 years old and my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for 2 years. We found out last spring that we had a male factor infertility issue (mostly with his count and motility) - we tried 3 IUI's, one natural ivf cycle, and 2 ivfs. nothing has worked so far. This last round of IVF, i found out only one embryo made it and it was frozen and to be transferred just the other day and the morning of transfer we learned that the embryo did not survive the thaw and we had nothing to implant. Certainly was awful to hear and I think I am still trying to pick up the pieces from the other day and also trying to normalize and figure out what to do next.
I do not have a lot of friends who have been through this type of experience. I have some friends of friends that have been helpful but most are already pregnant. I have never been pregnant and I want nothing more in my life. I feel so unlucky that this misfortune has taken over my life, has consumed me and has made me start to separate from friends and family.
I need some love, guidance, suggestions? Has anyone been in a similar spot. I would love to provide whatever support I am capable of as well.
I don't know how much more of the heartbreak I can take.
Thanks so much for reading. Love to all.