Every night LO goes down about 8 pm in his crib with no blanket or anything bc he usually sweats and its hot in his room. He is like clock work and wakes up at midnight (I hear him cry on the monitor) and is usually soaking wet so I change him give him a bottle and he goes back in bed with me.

Well last night something weird happened and our monitor was on a different channel. I must've slept really hard and I didn't wake up until 2:30 am, I shot straight up in bed knowing I had been asleep far too long without a wake up from LO. I shook DH and was freaking out bc LO hadn't woken up (I was thinking horrible thoughts as I ran into his nursery) when I got in there I breathed a Huge sigh of relief as I heard him breathing and peacefully sleeping. He was on his side and freezing cold (he never sleeps on his side) he had also pulled a blanket down that was attached to the top of his crib and he had it over his face. I immediately picked him up and changed him, gave him a bottle and he went back in bed with me, he was still half asleep thru all this..

Now I am feeling horrible today, I just keep wondering how long I let him cry for, freezing cold, and was probably looking for any kind of comfort he could get grabbing for something in the air and pulled down his blanket. I might add we have tried CIO a few times with no success his crying just got worse and he would cry for hours.

I feel like a bad mom but DH sees it as a good thing that he finally was able to put himself back to sleep an wants to start sleep training again. I don't mind him sleeping with us and I really enjoy it and get in extra cuddle time since I work full time.

I know LO wasn't neglected or wasn't in pain but I can't help but feel bad bc our stupid monitor wasn't on the right channel and I slept hard!