Disclaimer: This is just a vent. I'm not trying to say anyone is better or worse than other people.

I'm super happy about some news this week - one of my work BFFs has started her monitoring and will soon be on clomid through a clinic. I'm so excited because it's been a long and tough process for her, and while we both know it isn't over, she's one step closer to a possible second LO.

But I can't help but be jealous. DH still refuses to go for SA testing, and my family doctor will not give me a referral to a fertility clinic until we get this. I understand where she's coming from - they're going to want the SA regardless, and my DH is being totally unreasonable. I just can't help the feeling inside that we may never get to that point. I've also been working on adapting my feelings and doing my best to come to terms with the fact that with the way things are, we may not have kids, and I need to be okay with that. (Side note: I was okay with that before - DH said kids were important, I was indifferent, but my feelings changed after we made a decision to start trying last year).

Sorry for the vent!!