LO is 9 weeks old and I feel like we're constantly taking 2 steps forward, a million steps back on the sleep front. He consistently takes anywhere from 5-30 minutes to get down for a nap, sometimes up to an hour. After he falls asleep, he wakes up several times after about 5 minutes.

The most troublesome, though, is night sleep. It takes, minimum, an hour to get him to fall asleep. Last night, it took 4. Four hours. He fell asleep after an hour, but then woke up every 5 minutes for four hours. DH was working and I wanted to tear my hair out. The whole time, he's yawning and clearly tired. And then, eventually, overtired.

We don't let LO stay awake for longer than an hour between naps, which is when he starts to get visibly tired, so I know we're not forcing him. We have played around with this time frame a bit, 15 minutes in either direction, but it doesn't seem to make a difference.

We swaddle him for naps and bedtime, though I have tried arms-out swaddle and no swaddle to see if it makes a difference. It doesn't.

We have a bedtime routine that starts when he wakes up from his last nap of the day -- boob side 1, bath, PJs, massage, story (though he starts fussing halfway through the story so we end up stopping), swaddle, white noise, boob side 2 while rocking in the glider with the lights out. He sometimes falls asleep on the boob, but wakes up 5 minutes after we put him down. If he doesn't fall asleep, we rock him in the rock n play until he does. But he wakes up 5 minutes later. We try letting him fuss and cry, but it escalates until he's hysterical. We check his diaper, and it's fine. If it's not, we change him but it doesn't help.

We shush him. We rock him in the glider until he's drowsy. We try a paci, which usually gets him to fall asleep but he wakes up when it falls out 5 minutes later. If we take it out once he's asleep, he wakes up 5 minutes later.

We've tried the crib, the swing, the bouncer. He'll only sleep in his rock n play. As for naps. he won't sleep in a carrier and will only sleep about 30 minutes in a car seat, if he falls asleep, which isn't a guarantee. If he does fall asleep in the car seat, it's only after about 20 minutes.

We burp after feeding. We've tried gas drops. He's on Zantac for reflux, though I'm not convinced he has reflux. I put up blackout curtains. I bought a crib mobile thinking maybe it would soothe him to sleep (fail, it keeps him up for 45 minutes and then he's wailing again).

I feel like we have literally tried every trick in the book. But no matter what, all day, every day, 90% of the day is spent trying to get this kid to fall asleep or go back to sleep. The idea of "drowsy but awake" makes me laugh because I can't even get him to stay asleep after getting him to fall asleep. Though we have tried letting him fall asleep on his own, and yeah, no.

Once we are successful, he usually has hour-long naps and sleeps 5 hours at bedtime before waking to breastfeed for an hour (UGH), then back down for 3ish hours, feed, 2ish hours, up for the day.

I'm totally spent and constantly on edge. I'm sick of shushing and rocking and I'm terrified because I have to go back to work in 3 weeks and just cannot imagine having to continue doing this for one more day.

ETA: When we put him down, he won't just cry or lay there happy. His eyes will droop, and close, then open, then close, then open, and then eventually crying will begin. But he's very obviously sleepy and trying to sleep and just not able to no matter how we try to help.