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You're not a failure. I'm sure you've learned everything you can about the whole process, have executed everything to the best of your ability. That doesn't make you a failure, that just makes for some really shit luck and an anomaly you have no control over.

So much

Telling your parents can help you heal some. They'll understand what all has happened, the comments will stop, and they can support you in whatever you and your husband do from here on out.

You’re not a failure. It will all work out. I agree with the PP. Hang in there and maybe take a break and decide what you and your husband would like to do next. There are many options and I am sure your families will be supportive.

You are not a failure! Sometimes things in life are out of our control I can only imagine how frustrating & sad it must feel I guess some advice I can give is trust the process & timing -- when things are suppose to happen they will -- in the mean time try to create the most calming & stress free environment you can for yourself & your husband sometimes stress can effect your ability to get pregnant... In all honestly though I know it can be easier said than done but just know life will have a way of working out and providing you just exactly what you need when you need it - we are all on our own journey that looks differently for each person!! I am sending lots of love your way

I could have written this post myself. Everything is exactly how I feel. We've been trying for 2.5 years. No children. Not a single positive pregnancy test.

We have been diagnosed with unexplained infertility too; they believe my eggs may be the problem, though my blood work comes back within normal ranges. We just had our third and final IUI, and I had five follicles, the most ever, with three that were mature by the IUI—and yet, I cannot get myself to feel positive that it'll work. I cannot find any hope at all anymore. We finally told DH's parents a month ago in very vague terms that we were "getting help from doctors." It wasn't easy, but I found it a relief in a way. I hope you do too.

I don't have words of advice to give, but I wanted you to know that you aren't alone. I am here, and I know how this feels. If you ever need someone to just sit in the awfulness with you, please wall me.

@Umbreon: you are not a failure. IF just sucks and is totally unfair and knocks you around like crazy. And fwiw I’m not a believer that stress causes IF. One of the REs I saw on our journey said that we just don’t make good embryos together, and I liked that better than feeling like one person was to blame (since we also had zero answers from testing, although he noted that’s probably because in reality only a few things can be tested and much of fertility is still a mystery). All the hugs because it’s just so hard. I hope telling your parents helps a bit, but it’s ok if it doesn’t.

Like everyone has said, you are absolutely not a failure. All the feelings you have are totally normal and I think a natural process of the infertility "journey". It is truly, TRULY unfair. The thing that gets me is how out if control we are when it comes down to making babies
I hope when you tell your family you'll find so much support. To me, it was very important to get my personal turmoil out there and my family was wonderful (even thought they didn't "get it"!). I'm pretty open about my struggles and every story from other women with IF, while tugging at my heartstrings, makes me feel a little more comforted.

Just want to send you some hugs

You are NOT a failure!

I just have to chime in. I felt so much of what you are feeling during our infertility journey and I have always kept this quote from a blog I followed back then with me. It is so much truth: "You are not broken. You are not less-than. You are worthy of love. You are whole. Forgive yourself because you’ve done nothing wrong. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You are deserving of acceptance and belonging. Be kind to yourself and love yourself. Know that you are enough. You matter greatly. You are loved. You are not alone."

Hugs!