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@PurplePumps: Sorry you're still feeling worried!! DD measured small initially and was just a small baby overall. Heart rate looks great! Did they say anything about the measurements? when will you have another scan?
I met with the mind/body person today and did some mindfulness exercises, which were great. I just wish the bleeding would stop! Hubby is convinced the progesterone i'm taking is just preventing the inevitable
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I just sent the one print out and data to my doctor. It's 2am in Taiwan, so I don't expect to hear back until around 5 or 6 this evening. The u/s tech says everything looked good (for 6w6d), but I don't think she really realizes that I know my exact dates. I'm guessing he'll have me go back next week, but I'm also making an appointment with an OB just to meet with one and to see if maybe measurements differ from place to place.
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@endymion4: I'm really glad to hear that you had a good session with the mind/body person, but am so sorry about the continued bleeding. Hoping your followup this week brings clarity to the situation for you and your DH.
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@GreenThumb: thank you! it just seems impossible with this much that anything good can happen. How is there even any left circulating in my body??
Bah!Do you have any betas left, or do they only do 2? Scan is next week?
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@PurplePumps: So my baby measured a full 7 days behind PLUS I had red bleeding until about week 9. I went on bedrest all of January and each week the baby slowly started catching up in growth. I agree with previous posters that when the babies are that tiny, its so hard to get an accurate measurement. As long as there is a heart, and each week the baby is growing, then I think you shouldn't worry too much. Ha! Easier said than done, I know. But just know that all of here have had (or in my case, still have) babies who measured behind.
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@agold: Thank you so much for the reassurance. I really needed that.... Dr Google is being awful to me today!
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@PurplePumps: Just so you know, every single ultrasound I went to, I dreaded it and found something horribly wrong with the ultrasound results even though doctor was so positive and upbeat. One time, one of the u/s pictures looked like there was a black hole in my baby's brain. So I googled for days, including on the car ride home from the u/s appointment, looking at other pictures and looking up "hole in brain 6w2d ultrasound" stuff like that and was convinced my baby had no brain. Its horrible. Please don't do that to yourself. If you see something resembling a forming baby on your ultrasound and ultimately see or hear the heartbeat, just rejoice and try to be happy!
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TMI--don't read if you're squeamish:
I just passed 4 clots the size of my fist--that can't possibly still be normal??? I just wish this would go one way or the other. I've made peace with it not working if that's the way it goes, but this is torture
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@endymion4: Would you consider calling your doctor's office to check on that? Just to make sure they don't want you to be seen? Honestly, I've only had CPs so I don't have comparable experience, but that does sound pretty large to me.
ETA: How are you feeling physically otherwise? Lightheaded? Dizzy? It just sounds like you've experienced a lot of blood loss the last few days... -
@PurplePumps: How far are you now, and what is bebe measuring? Yolk sac still good? FHR is great, so that's something.. They're SO tiny and curled around at this point, it's easy for the measurements to be out.
@mole: Welcome, lovely. xx
@endymion4: I think you need to go in and get scanned again, hun. It sounds like it could be the byproduct of stopping the blood thinners and everything just clumping a little - but I'd still check.
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@endymion4: Yikes!! Limbo land sucks.
Can you go in tomorrow instead of Friday for another scan?@jaguar: She didn't specifically check the yolk sack, but I saw it there as she was moving around.
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@GreenThumb: there's no one there right now. i'll have to call in the morning. my clots during my miscarriages were no where near this large. my body is just exhausted at this point which is super fun with a 3yo
@jaguar: I'm going to see if they can see me tomorrow, but then i'll have to take my kid vs friday when i have a couple hours without her and can have a breakdown as needed
@PurplePumps: I'm going to see if I can and stick kid way in the corner of the room or something
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@endymion4: I agree with everyone else that it would be good to push to get checked again. I hope that it is just a result of stopping the lovenox, but that sounds like a lot of clots
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Just had u/s and both sacs are gone. Feeling crushed, but okay. We probably will not pursue IVF anymore
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@endymion4: I've been stalking and I am so sorry
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@endymion4: I am so, so sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself and know that we are here for you. You've shown so much strength through all of this. Sending healing thoughts your way!
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@endymion4: I am so sorry for you loss and have no words other than we are here for you, if you ever need it.
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@endymion4: I'm so sorry
I know you said you were prepared and ok with it, but I'm sure the confirmation of it is still really hard. Wishing you lots of strength right now, hope you're doing ok...
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@endymion4: Oh no. I'm so very sorry.
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@delight: @GreenThumb: @NorthStar: @PurplePumps: @agold: thank you all! at this point i'm feeling worse about the fact that my kid had to witness that appointment and can't make sense of it (she didn't know about the pregnancy but saw me crying and saw the RE and RN crying and is a bit traumatized by it all), but I didn't have a choice besides waiting until tomorrow which wasn't going to work either, so it is what it is. We are really looking forward to our summer and reconnecting as a family. this whole process has taken some much physical and mental energy away from our family so we're looking forward to bigger and brighter days
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@endymion4: Shit. I am so sad reading this, my heart just sank.
Huge hugs. I'm sorry.
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@endymion4: Oh, I'm a little late reading this. I'm so, so sorry.
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@endymion4: I'm just seeing your update now. I'm so, so sorry this happened and that the experience was rough with your LO. Keeping you in my thoughts.
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@jaguar: @Amorini: @SweetiePie: Thank you ladies!!
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@endymion4: Just wanted to check in on you...
@NorthStar: How is everything going? You must be gearing up right now, right? Hope all is well!!
Anyone else getting going with a new cycle?
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@GreenThumb: hi! Yes, started Lupron yesterday, as well as a detox/cleanse. No sugar, dairy, wheat, meat, etc for me this week!
lots of smoothies and other healthy foods! I should do ok, though, as I've been eating pretty healthy lately.
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@NorthStar: Yay! Good for you! When is your transfer date? Can you believe it is already May! Hoping for great things for you this cycle!!!
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@GreenThumb: May 31st! I have my first ultrasound next Tuesday. I'm trying to get excited, but am dealing with extreme parent (my mom) drama right now and it's pissing me off. Just trying to ignore that and focus on myself right now and being healthy for my embabie in a few weeks!
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@NorthStar: OMG, I totally just went through major mom drama right starting right before my transfer... it's still a little unresolved, but getting a bit better. I agree to just focus on yourself and your needs right now - priority #1. If not now, when, right?
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@GreenThumb: ugh, it's horrible, isn't it?! I agree with you 100%.
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@endymion4: I've been thinking of you..how are you doing?
@PurplePumps: Have you had any further ultrasounds? I couldn't remember when your next check is
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@NorthStar: I'm doing okay! waiting for the m/c to actually happen and in the meantime I have a killer migraine, as hormones are one of my biggest triggers (also not great that it coincided with DD have an ear infection so I was up with her all night the last 2 nights :/). Mentally we are okay, gearing up for a LOT of summer travel (so hoping things happen before we leave in a couple weeks). I have to admit, it's like a huge weight has been lifted from our shoulders not being IVF focused as we've been for the last several months. At DH's request, We are going to meet with our 2nd opinion RE and possibly phone consult with CCRM before completely bailing on IVF, but we're definitely not doing anything fertility related this summer and are ready to travel and have fun with DD!
Still following along with everyone else, and can't wait to see some successes on the boards!!
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@endymion4: I sure hope that it starts soon so that you can move on to what sounds like a glorious summer! Quite honestly, your summer sounds perfect and a wonderful way to reconnect as a family. I think that if our FET isn't successful end of this month, we will likely do the same thing. I am SO sick of giving up my life for infertility related things.
Getting a 2nd opinion and phone consult with CCRM sound like great ideas and it certainly doesn't hurt to take it to that step.
I'll be thinking of you
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@NorthStar: Thanks! Yes, I feel like i've either been prepping for a cycle or on bed rest or trying to take it easy to protect a pregnancy, or going through a m/c continuously for the last couple of years (we were pregnant 3 times with m/cs before starting IVF, so goes past when we started IVF). This summer is all about reconnecting and doing whatever the heck we want
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@NorthStar: aaaahh!! NO!!! And the spotting started up again last Friday.. ughhh. I told my doctor and he didn't move up my scan.. so just waiting. My in laws fly in tomorrow, so we'll probably tell them this weekend. And then my scan is next Thursday. Wish I'd asked for one this week, I really wanted to be more sure when we told them.
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ugh - internet ate my response!
@PurplePumps: I just wanted to wish you strength in telling your inlaws and hope you can relax while they are there. man, that is a long time to wait for another scan!
afm - started lupron on Sunday and last BCP yesterday, so i should get a small period in the next few days. I'm also on day 5 of 7 of a detox and of course there is a Cinco de Mayo celebration at work today (with yummy food!)
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@NorthStar: Thanks. I'm taking all next week off while they are here, so at least I'll have a distraction and hopefully we'll be busy enough for it to fly by. MmMmm.. so none of that wonderful food for you today??
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@endymion4: I think it is great that you are taking the summer off. I will do the same if things don't continue to progress with this pregnancy. Summer is the best time of year and the most relaxing, so I'm so glad you are ready to make the most of it with your family. Also, I think it is great to continue with your consults as far as you feel comfortable with.
@NorthStar: Hope that detox is a great boost for you! Excited to follow along with your cycle!!
@PurplePumps: I'm sorry to hear about the spotting again. I hope it is just as harmless as last time and stops really soon. Less than a week until your next check - that's great!!
AFM: I almost passed out during my PIO shot tonight... oops! Feeling better now though. Really nervous about our first U/S tomorrow, so I think that was a contributing factor.
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@PurplePumps: Spotting is the worst.
Big hugs to you!@GreenThumb: How are you doing?
@endymion4: *huge hugs* I'm so glad you guys are going to take some time for yourself this summer. You deserve it after all the hardship. After our first miscarriage in 2014 and our failed cycles after that, we went on a week trip away and it was such a good distraction. We needed it to get back together. x
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@endymion4: I think that taking the summer off is a great idea for you and your family.
So I finally have an update. My one inconclusive embryo was finally - and successfully - thawed, rebiopsied, and refrozen on Tuesday. Now we wait the two weeks or so for the PGD results. My husband has pretty much no hope, but thinks it's good we did it for my peace of mind. I only have like 10% hope and 90% of me is prepared for abnormal results. But Im OK (I tell myself that) with either outcome. I'm sort of feeling like if this miraculously is a normal emby it's our sign to have another and if it's abnormal it's a sign to be one and done.
We'll see!
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