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🤔 So, I think I'm out. Cramping along with low back pain since noonish. I gave my class their EN final, came home, and then popped Tylenol since they were hurting me so. I, literally, just began with crimson spotting 🤦‍♀️ 10 minutes ago. Since I'm 15 dpo, I assume it is far too late for an implantation bleed SOOO onto the next cycle (* DH is still out of town and I will probably OV by the time he returns). Since July/Aug will be a bust for POAS, I'll be having an IUI late Aug and will POAS in Sept. 🤷‍♀️ Honestly, I'm pretty over all this.

@fuzzypeaches: @paranundrum:
Thanks, ladies.
This morning, I am in SOOOOOOOO much pain it is unreal. My lower back aches and the ovary (RT) where the RE removed the Endo from the base is having stabbing pains. I was warned my 1st post-op af would be uncomfortable but this feels like the start of labor! 🤕🤢🥺
It is a bummer because, were I pregnant, my little would have been conceived on Independence Day (huge for a military family) and my due date would have been 21 March (or 3/21) which is just a cool number and awesome that it would be a "countdown to birth!" . Next cycle would lend forth to a 4/25 due date and the following would be 5/22. *sighs* Oh, well. 🤷‍♀️

Keeping with my normal "positivity," although I am crushed a BFP didn't happen (DH and I dtd 12x this month so I was hopeful), I have found a few take-aways:

1.) My [previous] usual premenstrual symptoms are now null and void. I didn't get my usual sore BBs, and chin acne, nor did I get major cravings.
2.) My CF (CM) has increased substantially which is amazing for me, especially with Sjogren's.
3.) My pups become more affectionate when I am uncomfortable (* this one is a bonus, although, now I know I can't depend on Pili to "tell me if I am pregnant!" 🙄).
4.) The "normal" for this cycle was a painful ovulation, cramping from 5 dpo, bloating, BB "growth/fullness," more fluids, no real appetite, and a weird mild "metallic mouth" (which I still have 🤦‍♀️). So, now I know they all mimic BFP symptoms and I will just have to wait for AF before I test the next cycle that I can try again.
Lastly, 5.) My body PROBABLY just needed this cycle to heal after the lap and excision. I shouldn't have forced trying for a BFP this month even if the RE told me we could, absolutely, try.

I am hoping DH returns a couple days early from training [as they had done last year] ... in that case, we may have a chance (🕺) if I do not OV at 10 dpo or earlier.
I will try to keep positive and hope either this cycle "happens" or the following cycle's IUI brings me a beautiful BFP. My fertility "should" be better (atleast for the next 6 mos post-op) so there is always that ...

@LAZB: Thank you. I had been hopeful as well, especially since all non-symptoms had been so dissimilar to those in past (non-medicated AND medicated) cycles. I'm keeping the faith that it WILL happen for me [and soon] because I've been extremely proactive in both DH's and my efforts, as well as, that I have been taking care of any and all health & fertility issues that arise. Besides, statistically (after over 3-1/2 years trying), with all of the interventions, Western medicine, and Eastern treatments, I am due for a beautiful BFP soon.
#StayingHopeful. #KeepingTheFaith #WorkingOnContinuedPositivity. #WhenLifeGivesYouLemons...

@crazydoglady: Thank you so much. DH and I will be trying for TI (if he makes it back from training in time) and a single IUI in August. If neither work, the RE wants to move me onto IVF due to my AMA and newly lackluster AMH numbers. He REALLY believes we have a chance (especially since I have had 2 live-births/children unassisted) within the next 3 mos ... I am optimistic and hopeful it will happen.

@CatchAFallingStar: How is this morning's HPT? Any progression? 🤞🤞🤞🤞

@CatchAFallingStar: I, completely, understand. I hope it is a true BFP. I can't wait to see your next HPT.

@CatchAFallingStar: Congrats! 🥳 Nice line ... I can't wait to hear your beta numbers on Monday! When would you like me to add you to the roster as a "BFP?"

@CatchAFallingStar: Congratulations (again), mama! 🥳 I'm so excited for you! As you have probably noticed, I had added your BFP on the August POAS; however, I forgot to update here. I will do so now.