....this is gonna be a long few weeks leading up to Mother's Day. It's so hard not to think about what would have been without the miscarriages, I would have had a 2 month old, or I would have been 5 months pregnant.....

I feel bad, I know on Mother's Day I should be focusing on my mom, and how thankful I am for her, but all I can think of right now is how much my situation sucks and feel sorry for myself, and jealous that my SIL will be celebrating Mother's Day for the first time this year.

It's just so hard to happy for others these days when you feel so crummy yourself.

For those of you without LO's and who have suffered a miscarriage, or perhaps battling infertility or have been ttc for a long time, what are you doing for Mother's Day? Anything for yourself? Just focusing on your own mom? I'll likely be burying my head in the sand and trying to forget my heartache.