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@snarkybiochemist: yay!!!!!!! So happy for you!!!

@snarkybiochemist: how did your husband react?

@madisonbee: I'm sorry I think it's super normal to be nervous from time to time about all the changes that will come with having kids - and it's worse when TTC takes awhile I think, because there's just so much more time for those thoughts to be in your head. I spend most of my time thinking about TTC desperately wanting to be a mom, but also have moments where I think "I'm already so tired, how will I ever take on such a big additional responsibility, I must have lost my marbles to want this so badly" or "I'm going to be so stressed out between work and home life that I'll be a horrible mom", or "what if my husband resents all the changes that will happen?" I'm sure there are good reasons to postpone TTC but also think it's normal to question it all from time to time... and with whatever you decide.

I think AF did start for me - though won't know for sure until I check the cup tonight. I've had cramps off and on all afternoon though, so it better be - hah hah. If so, this will be probably the first time ever that something TTC-related happened sooner than expected.

@snarkybiochemist: I told DH your good news and he's excited for you too!

@snarkybiochemist: Congratulations!

@mrsbubbletea: don't be shy, post it!

@snarkybiochemist: Yay for the toast!

@bizwitch: I use Kindara, and it only changes your ovulation date if you do temping and you mark a temperature shift. I wish they would make it so it would shift with a positive opk too. Sometimes I cheat and put a fake temperature in the day after my opk and mark that as a temperature shift and then it modifies all the dates.

@snarkybiochemist: I think it's super nice that you celebrated. We didn't, I guess I was just afraid it would make it harder if things didn't go well if I got too excited, but that was dumb in retrospect and next time I will do something....

@bizwitch: Thank you!

@snarkybiochemist: I think embracing this is a fantastic plan. So happy for you!

@snarkybiochemist: That's a really good attitude! My husband is super cautious and kept on saying things like don't get attached, don't have expectations, etc, and I think I took it too far.

@snarkybiochemist: so happy for you! Congratulations!

@snarkybiochemist: I always run out and buy 1 baby thing I really want when I first find out I am pregnant. I am not very superstitious and it seems to keep me feeling positive.

I can't believe I'm making a public internet post about this but I checked my menstrual cup with an anticipation normally reserved for POAS and AF is here!

If this cycle is somewhat normal, this would be great timing because o would come before a week long work trip that I was worried would interfere, but I know that probably the only thing I should expect is a wonky cycle. The TTC mind is a crazy thing, though, I instantly thought "If I conceived this cycle and it stuck, it would be perfect timing to announce to my parents when they come visit this summer." And then "No, stop, oh whatever, I think I'll give up on trying to soften the future disappointment..."

For the first time in awhile I feel hopeful, instead of just disappointed and worried...