E & F will be 4 weeks tomorrow, and yesterday was my actual due date, so their adjusted age is basically zero. The first three weeks were pretty good. I don't know if it was adrenaline, new mommy hormones, or that they were still very sleepy newborns. The last week, they've become fussy all the time. Part of it is probably them "waking up" more now that they are a few weeks older and the other part is that I think their little digestive systems aren't quite up to speed because they spit up, stiffen up like they are in pain, etc. after what seems like most feeding. We are pretty much on a schedule because they were on one in NICU and we've mostly stuck with it. But, by the time I get done BFing, supplementing, pumping, changing diapers, and getting both boys to sleep, I have pretty much zero sleep time before the next go round. Our ped wants us to keep waking them up for feedings for now because they are still pretty small--gaining weight and doing well, but they are still under 7 & 6 pounds respectively.

I have lots of help, but the last few days I'm just starting to feel like everything is out of control, and I'm crying all the time. I'm exhausted, feel like a terrible mother because I can't make them happy or figure out how to fix their tummy pains and it breaks my heart to feel like I'm doing something that's making them feel badly, and last, I feel like I'm living the movie Groundhog Day only my life just recycles every two amd a half to three hours. I'm so in love with them, but I'd like some hope that this stage won't go on forever.

What were your first few months like with multiples? When did it start getting a little bit easier?