I go back to work in 3 weeks. I've been on maternity leave for almost 5 months and when I go back, T will be 5.5 months old. I was also on bedrest at home for 2 months before his birth (though I did work from home during that time). Last night, I could barely sleep I had so much anxiety over returning to work. I just don't want to go back and the thought of leaving T makes me tear up. Everyone says how it will be "good for me" to go back and I know they are trying to be positive. There's not even one part of me that wants to go back, but financially I must -- I only had 2 months of paid leave. I feel like in some ways it would have been easier for me to go back to work at 12 weeks...at this point we have all of our little routines and we (ok me) are so attached. I have really enjoyed being home and I know how fortunate I am to have been able to take an extended leave.

Anyways, I'm not sure what I"m looking for. I know going back will suck and there's no way around it. How did you get over your return to work anxiety? Was it as bad as you thought it would be?