I did the stupidest thing tonight. I was leaving a store and had both boys with me. My hands were full and I was trying to get baby into the car but make sure DS1 wasnt wandering into the parking lot so I plopped the baby into his seat and went to get DS1. When I turned around the baby was climbing out of his seat. I hadn't buckled him in. He fell headfirst out of the car. Luckily the door was not fully open and blunted his fall so that he hit his head on the door and hit the pavement with his back and bottom. I screamed and ran to catch him but wasn't fast enough. He screamed and cried for about a minute and then just whimpered. I was shaking and crying and didn't know what to do. Somehow I made it home and we have been watching him for any signs of a concussion but so far, he seems perfectly normal, amazingly. He has a bruise over his eye and under his nose and a scrape on the back of his head but other than that he is seemingly ok.
I'm so freaking angry with myself and keep replaying it in my mind. I'm sick with a cold, I have cramps from my period and am sleep deprived because of teething. I think I just had a huge lapse of judgement that could have been devastating. I'm so grateful that my stupidity didnt cause a much worse result.