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Of course I had some insecurites. But during this time I could wear a bathing suit actually feel good about myself and my body.

I look back at pictures of myself in high school, I was so thin then, and I remember thinking I was fat. I think part of you peak hotness time (Mine was when I was 25) for me also meant that I felt good about myself. I guess I think it's also hot to have a good self esteem.

At my peak hotness I had the most disordered ideas about what was beautiful. It definitely wasn't the happiest time in my life AT ALL.

I always thought I had wide hips., It didn't help that I have a very short torso and high hips. Now after a few years and a baby.... I really know what wide hips are !

I've always struggled with my weight, so even when I was at my peak, I thought I needed to be more toned, especially in my stomach and thighs. I think a lot of it had to do with me comparing myself to other people - especially my trainer friends.

Now, if I get back there again after having this baby, I won't take it for granted.

i'm still waiting for my peak hotness.

Yeah, I did but I was able look past them. I didn't let it put me down. I understood that no one is perfect and so I embraced my insecurities. I still have insecurities that comes up when I'm feeling down.

I had some really bad eating/dieting habits between 11th grade and my Jr year of college, but I was pretty thin and in good shape; I just didn't see it at the time. If I had to chose between those eating/dieting habits and my weight now, I'd pick my weight now. Exercising really helped me to change my habits and get healthier.

Right now I'm about 40 pounds heavier than I was when I started college. I look at those pictures now and wish I realized how awesome I looked back then (minus the blonde in a ox hair - what was I thinking?). Although I didn't have a job or a baby, so I had plenty of time to bike and run, which I don't have much time for now. That's what I miss most about being a student - the flexible schedule that gave me time during the day to run and mtn bike.

Even at my peak hotness, I was/am still insecure about my looks only because I've always had a round, baby-face. I've always been the "smart" friend, never the "hot" friend...But now, I'm becoming more comfortable in my own skin.