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@SSLM- how are you feeling today? I told my mom yesterday that I felt like I was living "the day before my period" every day for 6 weeks.... Hoping that you're having a better day today.

@sslm: I'm glad you're starting to feel a little better! It definitely does get easier with each day that passes. Hopefully you guys can try again and have no issues. My nurse told me that people are most likely to have issues with their first pregnancy and then it's usually smooth sailing from there, so I hope that will be the case for you! And for me : )

Well, I'm joining this group as we suffered a miscarriage at 20 wks. I delivered our baby early this morning. I'm actually feeling at peace right now. I'm know I'll have moments of crying and being angry. The "good" news is we did see some chromosomal issues with the baby after it was born, like the cord was skinny in some places and thicker in others, so that makes us feel a Little better in that it was completely out of our hands. The whole experience did take away some of my fears of delivering, contractions, cervical checks. It was a process that completely sucked to go through, but I'm glad we did. Our hospital has a fantanstic bereavement group and they are being so helpful. Part of me wants to just 'deal with it' and then go home and not talk about it, but I know that's the worst thing we could do. It's amazing how many different people have told me their stories of miscarriages, especially ones that have had them as late as mine was. We need to wait 3 mths and then we can try again. Lord willing, we will be back here this time next year delivering a full term, alive baby.

@Jennimac: i'm so sorry. thank you for sharing and i'm glad to hear that you have a good support system IRL. i was thinking about you all day yesterday and will continue to do so. *hugs*

I'm 3 wks post delivery/MC, and still spotting. Last night I had horrible cramps and then more spotting.

I'm having a rough time. I feel like I"m in purgatory. I'm just at a waiting point with everything. I am waiting for my pelvic exam to clear me for 'special time' and baths. I'm waiting to start trying again, which will probably be around July or August. I'm waiting to hear if I get a classroom position, which I thought I was pretty sure about getting. Well, now the teacher that's due in May that's been hinting she is leaving may be coming back.

Can't I catch a freaking break here?!? I just want something to look forward to this summer. I need something to get me through these next few months so I don't lose my **** waiting around. If I get nothing and I'm spending these summer months waiting instead of getting my daughter. Then, I freak out worrying that we will have trouble or something will happen when we get pregnant again.

Then, to top everything off my pregnant co-worker was telling me how much her baby weighs, etc. Isn't that amazing--she asked? My husband was like, would you like to punch her if she wasn't pregnant and my immediate response was that I would still punch her despite the fact that she's pregnant. I wouldn't really, but I felt like it. I am not a violent person, but I'm just having a rough few days. Oh, and hubby's cousins had their baby a month early--she's fine. Everything is perfect for them.

We just have the messed stuff to deal with. This sucks.

So, about 5 weeks after...finally started again. So, now onto a new cycle and then wait 2 more cycles and then start trying again. It really hit me hard last night. I felt the cramps and knew I was going to start again. I'm glad that I 'know' my body so well, but it was really just a sucky night. Now, that it's the next day and it actually has happened, I'm moving on. It's okay. I'm onto the future.

Soooooooo......we got clearance to start trying again! As soon as I get my period, then we are back on track! Yay!

@Jennimac: Congrats on getting clearance! How exciting!

@SSLM: AF ever show?

@sslm: Boo to AF, but yay you can enjoy your vacation with some drinks!!!!!

I'm trying to tame down the crazy TTC lady that lives inside me.
She is already stressing about whether hubby will be in town at the right time. I am taming her by reminding her we are just relaxing and having fun. We will see how that goes.

@alison206: Yay! Good luck!

@alison206: Fair enough, it's still really fun to be able to have good feelings coming back (even though the bad ones never go away). I'm excited for you.

@sslm: oh my friend! I'm so sorry. That time between the start of AF and ovulation is so hard. I think sometimes it is harder than the TWW. I hope it gets better. I'm waiting to start our next cycle and then we will try. I have promised my husband that I will try to not be crazy when we are trying.

I'm getting ready to go and meet my cousin's baby. I don't know how I feel about it, but it will be better to do it with the two of us rather than in two weeks with the whole family. I think she gets it, but it's still going to suck.