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I did Ms. kiddosc, I hold it up to the black line, but I don't know if I dip it too long so too much of urine absorb up, and too much urine carries the dye across. I'm sorry, English is my third language. I'm just panic why the line is like that.

Absent period in the month of May. And now it June 21st, and still no period anywhere.
If it positive, then I must conceived in May then, because the line is kindda dark, I don't even have to squint to see the line.

How many seconds are we suppose to dip the strip into the urine? 5 seconds right?
And I do see the dye run, so I think it was too much urine.
I know my cheap Android phone is not showing good quality. But I have the test right in front of me, and can see the whole line, solid whole line. It just I can't explain why the half top of the line is darker color than the bottom half of the line.

Hi, I guess update for the last 4 days. I'm just scare, confuse and overwhelmed, extremely overwhelmed.

In the month of May I ate something, just random food at those little stores along the street of Chinatown (maybe unclean food) and it caused me to have vomit for a whole day. I was on my BCPills like normal, I never miss a pill before.. But that one day in May when I vomit I still didn't think I vomit the pill back out (I didn't see the pill come out when I vomit). And I thought once I swallow it my stomach digest it.
There is a whole pack of BCP hormones in a whole month, I just didn't think 1 pill can mess it up? I'm just sooo confuse. I guess I must ovulate some time in May and get pregnant then.

I did make an appointment with my OB/GYN. She just very busy, she fully booked with other patients appointments. The earliest she can squeeze me in is next week, so I got an appointment for next week.
I mean sooner, I can wait for her in her office at the latest time of her office hours before she close, when she finish with her last patient appointment of the day. I can see her before she close, at her latest hours.. I know this have to be see her soon, but the earliest she can squeeze me in is next week.
I'm just very fatigue and tired alot lately, I can fall aslseep anytime in the day, it be embarrassing if I sit in her office wait for her so she can see me right before she close, and I fall asleep while in there. But I don't know how to stop me from from being fatigue, I wish I wasn't so fatigue.

I was fine in May, then towards the last 2 weeks of June, I start to feel really off, that was when I think I might be pregnant. I just didn't think throw up 1 pill hormones (which I didn't think I throw it up, I thought my stomach digest it), and even if I did, how can miss 1 pill effect the whole month pack of pills? I just don't understand.

I been feeling fatigue, I feel tired and I fall asleep throughout the day and it at anytime. I was NOT like this before, but now, I'm constantly fatigue, I don't have the energy like before.
I was never a nap person until now. NEVER once I nap a day in my life, and now I keep nap throughout the day. I can sit on the sofa and the next thing I fall asleep and I dont' even know, until I wake up that was when I know I just nap.
It just so weird. Some days I can be craving something and eat a whole bowl. Some days I can just eat a few bites and I no longer can shove it down, just a bite and nausea already hitting in.

oh, I have more new tests if you can see for me. I been continue taking it for the past 4 days to see my hCG level.
What I heard is if you drink a high volume of water, drinking too much water can dilute the hCG level in your output urine. So I try drink alot of water to dilute my urine, so maybe the hCG line won't show up if I drink high volume or water?
And I avoid test it in morning, because I know moring is the highest hCG. So I only test it in the afternoon/evening and night time only, while drink alot of water to dilute it.
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So for the past 2 days I drank alot of water bottles.
Like in the evening I drank 3 water bottles in the, so I can get my pee to be dilute clear color before I test again. Well, I get my pee to clear color from drink alot of water, I dip the strips in my pee, and it still show a line.
Later late at night, I tried again. I drank 3 more water bottles, make sure my pee is clear color and I dip more tests in, and it still showing the positive line. I didn't even have to squint my eyes to see the line.

I took 10 more pics, can you please look at it for me please. I drink alot of water, 6 bottles of water during these tests yesterday (3 bottles first time, and another 3 bottles at night), and the line is still show up.
The line is still here, even with diluted pee and lots of water bottles. Can you take a look at the new tests line please, this can't be a get an oversaturation/dye run right? All the tests has this line.
I mean the only job of the test is just to detect if I hiave hCG in my ruine. If there no hCG in your urine, regardless of how much urine you dip it in, it just won't appear a dark line.

Please look at my new pics below. These flowing times I follow the exact instruction of how many seconds it told me to dip it in, so for sure it can't be oversaturation from too much dip in pee.
I guess it time for me to accept it, that I'm pregnant. I'm just not ready to be a mom yet. But seem like I'm going to be a mom at the age of 33 (I just turn 33 last week).

Sorry, my cheap Android phone, the camera is not that clear quality. But can you see it? These new test are not oversaturation/dye run right? I mean it multiple tests taking at different times, and it still the clear line. And this is after I drink like 6 bottles of Arrowhead water total try to dilute the hCG in my urine.
I know there one poster who vote it a dye run, can you look at the new test pics please.
And can others help me look at it too please. I already have an appointment to see my OB/GYN next week.

Close up pics:

We got married 2.5 years ago (Feb 6th, 2015), so perhaps it time to have a baby.
It just my plan was wait till 35 and then TTC. There things in my life that I need to work on, especially the strain relationship between me and my mother, and her abuse me throughout my whole childhood.
I want to wait 2 more years then TTC, but now at the age of 33, I'm going to be a mom. I guess it not that earlier than I expected, but it still earlier than I expected.

My husband really want us to have a baby, if it was up to him, he doesn't want me to take BCPills, he wants me to let nature take it course.
But it me that not ready for a baby yet, so what can he do if I decided to take BCPills. So he said he wait for me until I'm ready. It was fine for 2.5 years, until last month in May, I miss one pill due to throwing up (which I swear I didn't see I throw the pill back up when I vomit. And I thought stomach digested it after I swallow it).

My husband he had been having the feeling that I'm pregnant, as he keeps remind me and tell me to take the pregnancy test. In May when I didn't get my period on my placebo pills week, at the first week of June he already told me to take a the test. But I said No, no take.
And following weeks he remind me again, and I put my foot down that I'm not pregnant, at least not yet. Everytime time mentioned take the pregnancy test, I put my foot down on him like a 3 years old toddler, I said No pregnant.
I told him even if that day in May when I vomit, even when I throw up the pill along when I vomit (which I don't think I did, I didn't see the pill come back out when I throw up), it was just one pill only. It shouldn't effect that much, it was just one pill out of the whole pack.
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I thought I was just skip the period of the placebo pills week of May, and I will get my period on the placebo pills week in June. But no period anywhere in sight.
This month June I feel really off, constantly fatigue/tired, and nausea and nausea. That was when I get worried and that I might be pregnant.
My husband noticed I been nausea alot, but I told him the nausea it just the stomach flu (which I thought it was at first, until it just won't go away or get better. And it still not go away).
Fews days and every few days he keep remind me to take the test, and I just shook my head, I said No.
Last Saturday the day before Father's Day, he told me that he understand that I'm not ready for a baby (due to the situation between me and my mother) he said he understand everything. But for my health, and for the baby health if I'm pregnant, I need to make an appointment to see the doctor, he needs me to take the pregnancy test. He even begged me to take it.

I can tell that he frustrated that we in the begining of 3rd week of June already, and I still don't listen to him to take the pregnancy test (especially I didn't get my period in my placebo pills week in May).
I mean I DID take the tests and been taking the tests for the past 4 days (Tuesday through Friday last week straight, and every single tests come out positive, despite how much water I drink tried to dilute the hCG level in my urine).
I just didn't mentioned it to him that took it already or the result, as I was still very overwhelmed that my BCP fail, when I took my pills everyday, how can miss 1 pill effect the WHOLE pack of pills?

I did tell him on Friday night that I'm pregnant, and I also show him 12 tests of mine with the line. So it been 2 days now that he knows I'm pregnant. He very very happy. And he going to go together with me to my prenatal appointment this week, I have an appointment with my OB/GYN this week on Thursday.

Thank you Ms. adira, he is thrilled. The one that is not thrilled is me. You read my background threads, you know the strain relationship between me and my mother. It still haven't solve yet, I just didn't think of be a mom right now. I wasn't TTC.

I'm not ready to be a mom. But I said this before in my background thread. If I happen to get pregnant while on my BCPills. I will do everything, everything to make sure I give birth to this baby, even if that means risk my health. I said If, if there any anything wrong with my health, I will chose the baby over my own health, I will chose this baby over my own life. I risk my life, so I can bring this baby to this world.
Ofcourse I love the baby, it is the baby with my husband. He sacrifice alot in this relationship/marriage. My mother ridiculously unfairly treating him (disapproved and discriminate against him SOLELY due to he not from the same culture as me). But he still chose to married me, stay married to me, and he is an awesome husband too.
I'm having a hard time accept that I'm pregnant, but whether I'm ready or not, a baby is coming, I'm going to be a mom.

I told my husband on Friday night, so it been 2 days that he knows I'm pregnant. He thrilled, he very very happy.
I didn't do anything special, I just put his hands on my tummy and I said to him I know he really want us to have a baby, Buddhist (I'm Buddhist religion) can see how much he wants us to have a baby, so grant him his baby wish.
Then I show him like 12 tests under the sofa pillow, it all the dark line. I said to him I should have tell him couple days ago when I first took the test, but I was overwhelmed, and I just didn't think I can get pregnant when I know for sure that one day when I vomit from eating unclean food at Chinatown, I know for sure I didn't see the pill come back out when I vomit. I just didn't think 1 pill can have an effect to the whole pack of BCPills.

He just so happy that I'm pregnant, he said he coming with me to my prenatal appointments (so he coming with me next week to my first appointment) and to ALL my prenantal appointments throughout my pregnancy. He has pay personal days and sick days at his work, he can use those days to go with me to my prenatal. (Every year he has numbers of sick days, personal days and vacation days).
He already kiss my stomach, he said what he said before I was pregnant, when I'm pregnant, he wants me to let him kiss my stomach everyday for 9 months till the baby born.
He just very happy, he smile to himself all the time. He go to sleep with a smile on his face, lol. He already want to buy a baby crib.

He already kiss my stomach and talk to the baby, before he go to work, he even ask the baby for Permission that he go to work, lol. Everything he do, he asked my tummy asked the baby for PERMISSION.
I told him that the baby is still very new, the baby can't hear him, and even when the baby grow enough to can, the baby still can't answer him to give him permission.

I don't know what is wrong with him, but he just thrilled. Eversince he know I got my BFP I'm pregnant, he been asking the baby for permission in everything he do or go, lol

He is the father, and he already asked the unborn baby permission in everything, He do it backward, since when do a "father" have to ask their child(ren) for permission to do stuff? It is the children that have to ask their father permission, not the other way around. But he go ask his unborn baby permission.
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He always kiss my tummy first and then say things to the baby, he put the side of his head and his ear on my tummy to hear the baby.
He said dad is hungry, and he asked baby permission if he can eat dinner.. I just giggle, because he so corny. I said baby can't hear him, but he said baby can.
He said the baby can hear him, and the baby said yes give permission that dad can eat dinner, lol
It only been 2 day since I told him I'm pregnant, and he kiss my tummy like 10 times.

He asked my tummy the baby permission to eat, to go to work, he even asked if the baby let give him permission to work July 4th holiday.
(which is on a weekday, and he has to work anyways, he already schedule to work ahead of time, he can't get out of it. He just being corny to ask the baby permission if he can work, lol).
Even before he sleep, he asked the baby permission if he can to to sleep. He just being silly, he excited.

He take it alot better than me. Me? I'm still have hard time to accept I'm pregnant. I know I miss my period in the month of May, but I didn't even test until June when I start to get very fatigue and consantly nausea.
I was waiting till age 35 to TTC, and now at age 33, I'm going to be a mom.
He wants to be with me in my delivery and cut the baby cord. So we will have to make a birth plan with my OB/GYN that he wants to be there to cut baby cord.
He said he wants to kiss the bottom of the baby, must be the bottom of baby foot, lol.

He already want to do all the diapers change, he said when the baby come, he will do all the diapers change when he home from work. I only have to change diaper when he at work, when he home, let him do it. He see change his paper diapers as a way to bonding with his baby..
He loves changing diapers, he change his older sister kids (his nephew and niece) diapers all the time. As an uncle, he help change their diapers. Including bathe them and feed them.
His older sister and him has quite an age gap, his sister about 8 years older than him. When she has her kids, she work full time. So he as a little brother of her, and an uncle to his nephew/niece, he has to step in and help change their diapers and bathe them, read to them. So things like this is not new to him.
But it all new to me. He is the first guy I've ever been with, he my first everything. And I never change a single diaper a day in my life.
While him, as an uncle help his older sister kids. His nephew and niece are older now, they don't need him to change their diapers anymore. They do love their uncle though.

He is still very excited. Even before he go to sleep, he kiss my tummy and he asked the baby permission for him to go to sleep. He put the side of his head and ear on my tummy, and he said he baby can hear him the baby said yes, give dad permission to sleep, lol

He coming with me to my OB/GYN appointment on Thursday, and we go on from there. As you see, he take it better than me. He was ready anyways, when we married, he said it, he wants us to have a baby. It is "me" that doesn't want a baby, doesn't want to be a mom (due to the whole strain relationship between me and my mom and my childhood with how my mom treats me throughout my whole childhood). But that is me. He is he, and he ready to be a dad.
I need to work on myself, and I need to accept this, that I'm pregnant. I'm still trying to digest it, it just so unexpected for me, since I'm the one that want to be on BCPills and not ready to be a mom.
I know I can't be selfish of my needs only, seeing how happy he is, I know regardless of how hard this pregnancy will be, or whether I'm ready or not, it will be all worth it.

My husband is still excited for this baby, he still kiss and talk to my stomach. And still ask the baby permission to do everything, lol
Last night he still ask the baby permission to go to sleep. He always kiss my stomach first and he put the side of his head and his ear on my stomach, he said to the baby if the baby give him permission to go to sleep today. He so silly, I said the baby can't hear him yet (I don't think baby can hear in first trimester?).
But he said baby can hear him, and baby just answered him. And today baby said No, baby said won't give dad permission to sleep until dad rubs mom feet.
So he said let him rubs my hands, legs and feet for 30 minutes before we go to sleep.

He always rubs my hands and feet, throughout marriage life with him, even before I got pregnant. Especially in the winter time, when my hands and feet gets cold in the winter.. He opened mouth breathe into my hands and rubs my hands to keep it warm. When we in bed, he always rubs my hands and feet.
We did tried to turn on heater; but when the heater stays on, after a while my nose start to bleed. He got worried, je said he doesn't want to see my nose bleed. So won't to leave the heater on long. He said let him rubs my feet and hands to helps keep it stay warm.
When my hands and feet get cold again, he rubs my hands and feet again, he keeps do it till we sleep. That was how it is in the winter months. I mean I understand if he do what he do in the winter months.

BUT this is the summer, I mean we in the summer right? I told him my feet is not cold. But he said the baby said dad can't go sleep until dad rubs mom feet.
He so silly. I said the baby can't hear him nor can answer him. But he said he just asked the baby permission, and baby said rubs mom feet first, then baby give him permission to sleep.
I let him have it his ways, obviously he not listening to me. He just so silly, I don't know if I should cry or laugh at my husband.
My feet are not tired, I'm a Stay at home Wife, I don't work. I'm not on my feet like back when I work at Retail in the past. So really, he doesn't have to rub my feet, he just doesn't get it.

He savings all his sick days, personal days, and vacation weeks all for my pregnancy. He said he wants to go to ALL my prenatal appointments with me.
And he wants to be with me in my delivery and must cut the baby cord.

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And there something else he wants to do for the baby, he talks about this even back when I was not pregnant. He said it something that is important to him, and he really want to do it. So he ask me to let him do it. Is let him go vegan for 4 years.

And he probably doing this it because of me.
I'm a Buddhist follower. When it comes to major Buddhist holidays, and the first day of Chinese Lunar New Year. And the whole month of Ullambana Budhist holidays. We eat vegeterian, we don't eat meat.. Buddhist believe that when you don't eat animal meat, you eat vegeterian will give you blessing--(for not eat animal meat), you'll get blessed.
So a year out of 365 days, I eat vegeterian for 40 days. And that is the best I can do, it the maximum of days I can go without meat. I personally love eating meat too much, no way I can't give up meat.

Eventhough we have a huge cultural difference between us. But he very understanding of my culture and Buddhist religion.
I explained it to him. And I told him the days I eat vegeterian, I will cook separate food with meat for him. I mean we do have plenty of meat in the fridge.
But he said No, he will not eat meat while seeing me eat vegeterian.. He said he not gonna enjoy eating meat by himself when his wife is eating vegeterian food. He said he is my husband, the days I eat vegeterian, he will eat vegeterian together with me.
And he eats it with me, that 40 days he just eat steamed rice, boil cabbage, or boil vegetables, and soy sauce. He happily eat it with me for that 40 days out of a year.

My husband knows knows in my culture and religion that when you eat vegeterian/not eat animal meat will give you blessed, you get bestow blessing for not eat meat.
Back then at the time (I wasn't pregnant), he said when I'm pregnant he will eat vegeterian, strictly vegan for 9 months of my pregnancy till I give birth and continue to eat vegan till our baby turn 3 years old.
So that 9 months of my pregnancy till our baby turn 3, he will not eat meat.. So 3 years and 9 months, almost 4 years he will eat vegan; so that me and our baby will be blessed.
He said he wants to start as soon as I get a positive on the pregnancy test, he wants the baby in my tummy will be blessed, and he will continue vegan till our baby turn 3 years old.
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Perhaps he thinks that he eats strictly vegan, he not eat meat can bestow blessing/can bring blessings to me and our baby. I dunno, but he said it something he really want to do, and he asked me to let him it for 4 years (during my pregnancy and till our baby turn 3).

And he said it will ONLY be him eat vegeterian (in that 4 years), 'him' only. He wants me to eat normally eat meat, and my pregnant tummy need nutritious foods, regardless during pregnancy or post pregnancy he wants me to eat meat.
And the baby also need to eat meat, babies/toddlers need iron protein for growth, developed strong immune system, healthy development, brain cells, yada yada.. What he saying is the 9 months of my pregnancy till our baby turn 3 years old, me and the baby need to eat meat. He make it clear that he wants me and the baby to eat meat, it just him eat vegeterian. (not me or the baby).

You know how when I offer to cook separate food with meat for him on the 39 days I eat vegeterian, he said No. He said he not gonna enjoy eating meat by himself when his wife is eating vegeterian food. He said he is my husband, the days I eat vegeterian, he will eat vegeterian together with me.
But then look at it now, while me and and the baby eat meat, him eating vegan only. He doesn't want me and the baby to eat vegan with him in that 4 years. He wants me and the baby eat meat, eat nutritious food.

Not just vegeterian in that 4 years, but he wants to go complete vegan, no dairy No eggs. So no meat, no fish, no seafood, No dairy no eggs, no milk, no fish or oyster sauce.
He eats very easy, just a bowl of steamed rice and boil cabbage, or any boil vegetables is fine with him, and just soy sauce on top, and that it.
But I worry he will not get enough IRON from just a bowl of steamed rice which is just starch, and a bowl of boil cabbage. Especially he wants to do this for 4 years long.

He work a hard and dangerous job (day to day dealing with at least 80,000 gallons of Fuel which is highly flammable. Or Hydrofluoric Acid which is corrosive).
I said No to the Hydrofluoric Acid, I told him work with fuel instead. I take the highly flammable fuel over the corrosive acid.

A Tanker hold up to 13,000 gallons of fuel. He do 6-7 loads a day (deliver 80,000 gallons of fuel a day). Load fuel at the loading rack, deliver, unload fuel. Repeat at leat 6 times/6 loads a day.
I do worry about his health, because of the stuff he inhale on a daily basis. The loading racks area where he load fuel look like this:

A day he does at least 6 loads a day, so he in and out of the loading racks 6 times a day, and he directly dealing with 80,000 gallons of these stuff a day.. It the loading racks that full with fumes and vapors. And fuel contain Benzene.
He work in the Oilfield before, dealing with crude oil so these stuff he got alot of experience in it. Past or present, he always work with fuel/crude oil, hazardous chemical factories/chemical plants. He been dealing with fuel and acid for the past 7-8 years of his life. I know he knows exactly what he doing, but I'm just worry about his health.

I don't want him to go completely vegan. I need to talk to him about it, if he still insists on not eat meat so Buddhist can bestow blessing/can bring blessings to me and our baby. Then just be vegeterian, at least have eggs and dairy.
Or if he must go vegan, just do it in the 9 months of my prenancy. Don't do it till our baby turn 3, that would be 4 years time, and I worry about his health in the long run.

He already want to start go vegan, but I told him he has to eat meat with me until the meat we have in the fridge right now run out, then next grocery shopping, we buy less meat (just enough for me, since he wants me to me eat meat. Just him go vegan only). And buy more vegetables for him.
I know he fine with just a bowl of steamed rice and boil cabbage, but IRON needs more than just starch and boil cabbage. American food vegan don't just contain rice and boil cabbage. He needs to be healthy to take care of me and the baby too.