Warning, this is a woe-is-me kind of post, so feel free to not read if you've met your whining quota for the day

The story is this: I finished graduate school in May, moved back to the state where I grew up at the end of June, and began seriously looking for a job in the area. I've had SO MANY interviews, and now, here we are, in the middle of January, and still nothing. I'm beginning to wonder if there is something seriously wrong with me. I always feel like I am well-prepared when I go in, I know a lot about the organization, I have questions prepared in advance, I'm polite, I have a good rapport with the interviewers, I dress in a suit, I send a polite "Thanks for the opportunity to interview" email the following day, I know I'm well-qualified and would do a great job, etc etc.

I'm just starting to feel crushed, and taking things really personally. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help it, you know? We're down to the last couple hundred dollars in our bank account, and I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. DH is working part-time, but it's honestly been difficult for him, too, since he's not that fluent in English yet (moved here from South America a little more than a year ago) and only has a HS diploma.

I'm thankful that we're able to stay in a property my parents own, rent-free, so at least there isn't that stress. But I'm starting to feel like a huge drag to everyone in my life. I've stopped communicating with pretty much all of my friends, because it's frankly embarrassing when they ask "oh how have you been?" and the only thing I can answer is "pretty much the same, got rejected again" etc etc.

I honestly feel like I'm at the point where I'm ready to give up, and just find some menial, entry-level job that has nothing to do with my training. I just feel like such a failure. I'm normally the eternal optimist, but these days I just feel all negativity, all the time.

Sorry for the novel, didn't mean for it to be that long, but I just needed to vent. I feel a lot better now, thanks