So I don’t know who else to turn to. I don’t want to confide in my mom anymore, I feel like I complain to her enough (and I don’t want her to think there is anything wrong with our marriage) I don’t want to confide in my best friend, because again I don’t want her to think there is anything wrong. So I turn to the wonderful hellobee crowd!

Let me start by saying that I love my husband deeply, and he loves me. But deep down I think I am holding resentment/grudge against him. I feel like I am just working my ass off lately (working full time, took on a part time job, and I am now taking 1 class, along with all the cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc) Now don’t get me wrong if I beg and plead with him, he will help me, but he does it in a very pissed off fashion. And it just causes there to be a bad mood in the air. So rather than keep asking/nagging him to help with anything around the house I just do it. To keep peace. Probably not the right way to do things, but I don’t know any other way.

I feel resentment at him I think because I have to take on the 2nd job. He also works full time and has a part time job. We are making it by with just our full time jobs, but with us both working the 2nd jobs, we are able to put a little in savings each month along with making extra payments on our student loans/mortgage. I know this is a really silly way of looking at things, but in my eyes I would love to be the old traditional family, husband works, brings in the majority of the money, wife works maybe a part time job, but maintains the house, cooks, cleans. I would LOVE that. It’s just not feasible for us, DH doesn’t have his college degree, and he’s pretty much stuck in a low paying position.

I seriously wonder sometimes if I’m depressed. I don’t know what the signs even are. I know the my moods go hot-cold in an instant. So I guess I’m just posting on here to let it out in the air, and to get it off my chest because it feels a little better that way! Thanks!