As many of you know, my Nana passed away recently. Her service was this weekend. An aunt on the other side of my family, whom I have not seen recently, came into the church (which was very much appreciated & I love her dearly!) and announced, 'you're pregnant!' when she saw me. 'ummm, nope. Just fat!' then rather than dropping it, went on with, 'oh I just thought so because your dad had said you guys were trying...' 'oh, he did? Ok. Umm. I guess whenever it's meant to be it will be!' mind you, I've never talked to my dad about 'trying', maybe my mom said something to him because while I haven't come right out & said it, I've asked her thoughts on drs (she works in the field) & she knows I've had problems with my cycles.

I left the church for a moment & just cried. I cried because I'm sad my nana died, because I'm fat, because I look pregnant even though I'm not, because I wish so badly that I was pregnant, because I wish I got to tell my nana I was pregnant & show her a baby I made, I cried because I got called out on being fat & was mortified, because now I know everyone is aware that we're trying & I'm failing to make a baby, and as silly as it sounds, I cried because I'd just spend a hundred dollars on a dress I thought was cute & comfy but now I'll never wear it again!

Anyway, yet another example of why not to ask someone about whether they're pregnant!