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@Nutella: I dont! Hah... I only put shatterproof ornaments down low this year and am constantly saying "look with your eyes."

@jaguar: hallelujah! Very happy to hear this!

@Tanjowen: I'm glad you're starting to feel better...but the baby showers sound like hell I'm facing similar questions as LO turns 2 in jan. And no one really thinks before speaking! Can you go for a quick cameo & escape? Or not really an option?

I'm on cd31 with no AF & a painful bfn this morning. My cycle is normally 29 days so I just think this is extra mean kick in the guts from the universe!

@jaguar: yay! finally the end of a long road!

@Tanjowen: I hate this question. I get it constantly lately and I'm sure it'll be nonstop at LO's birthday party. sometimes I want to respond "do you realize what an inappropriate question that is? You'll know when we have news to share, and not a moment earlier!"

@Nutella: boo how frustrating for you. There's nothing worse than being in no period not pregnant limbo.

@MrsDragon: @Pirouette: @Tanjowen: thanks ladies rough day yesterday but today much better & looking forward to sushi and sake with a gf tonight!

@jaguar: are you feeling any better with the levels being at 0? I'm so happy for you to be able to move on! But so sad you have to.

@Tanjowen: I hope you can escape quickly.

@Tanjowen: @Nutella: @Pirouette: I've been getting it a lot lately too, though I don't have any live children. I think it's because dh and I just passed our third anniversary, and we've been together over 11 years. They all seem surprised we don't have zillions of kids running around already.

@Nutella: we have to celebrate the small things!

@Crystal: Yes and no. They took so long to get down, they ruined our goal of a December FET. So now we are stuck waiting. And the spotting I had lasted ONE day, and no real bleed... so I don't even know where I stand in my cycle.

That and about a million pregnancy announcements in the last few days (some from my real life IVF support group - where I am officially now the last one to get pregnant with a sibling) and I am a complete mess.

@Tanjowen: I'm so sorry friend. I'm glad you were able to escape.

@jaguar: fx your body gets back on track soon. I understand how hard the pregnancy announcements are, I'm so sorry friend. I'm dreading Christmas for a similar reason.

I'm joining in as I could use some support...

1. What is your story? I have a 3 year old at home and have been trying to conceive for a year. We got pregnant in June but miscarried at 7 weeks. We also got pregnant in November and last Friday when I went in for my ultrasound at 6 weeks and 4 days they saw an empty gestational sac. My beta at 5 weeks 4 days was 5470 and my beta at 6 weeks 4 days is 22,116 so not exactly doubling and also not helpful in telling me any more about whether I have a blighted ovum. Now I'm just waiting for a second ultrasound on Friday to see if anything has changed.

2. How do you feel today? Pretty lousy. I'm stuck in this awful waiting game as it seems like history is about to repeat itself. It also took about 5 months for my cycles to normalize after my last miscarriage and I had terrible acne, a short luteal phase, etc. I'm really hoping that my body will bounce back more quickly this time around.

3. If you have any "next steps" what are they? If this pregnancy ends up as a blighted ovum, then we plan to resume our plan to do IVF as soon as possible after the new year. I have a diminished ovarian reserve and don't really want to waste any more time trying on my own.

4. What coping strategies have worked the best for you? Just taking it one day at a time.

@Pirouette: Thanks for the welcome. The gestational sac is actually measuring on track with respect to when I ovulated. The issue is that with an hcg level in excess of 5000, they should have seen a yolk sac. There are miraculous internet stories where the person comes back and everything shows up the next week. I just know with my diminished ovarian reserve, my eggs are crappy to start with so the story will likely not end that way with me.

@Shantuck:

@MaryM: sorry the results explained nothing - super frustrating!

I bought a pretty ornament for our tree remembering our little bean. And also finally chose a gold charm for a chain that I'm wearing. It's nice to remember it's there during some of the crappier days.

@jaguar: I just had a flurry of birth announcements on FB this week and those are stinging me as much as the pregnancies that are everywhere

@Shantuck: welcome and I am sorry you are going through this. I had a series of ultrasounds in October and they kept giving me false hope. I hope for you that this does turn into s miracle, but no matter what the outcome we are here and rooting for you.
@MaryM: I hope the doctors can figure out a good plan for you and that 2016 brings happier times.
My girlfriend and I are going to make ornaments this week for our losses. We have an Angel tree at a park downtown dedicated to lost babies so we will hang an ornament on that tree and on our own.

Four more days until our one year anniversary of our loss and I keep welling up. I feel like I have constant tears ready to fall and am finding it hard to hold it together. I just remember how awful last Christmas was and how I just kept telling myself "Next year you'll be pregnant with a heathy baby at Christmas." Blah!

@Crystal: I got got a crystal heart with love engraved on it. I found it at some markets that we're going on last weekend, and I really liked it.

Sigh, another two births announced (from my roughly 15+ pregnant friends) and it is tough! Two girls today, while yesterday was three boys! It's not even like I can just avoid FB, I got sent messages obviously because I'm their friend...but I just hate feeling so jealous!

Kicking myself for sharing early pregnancy in so many online support places, because now I have to go do this over and over -- I'm bleeding today and pretty sure this is loss #3. I have an appointment in half an hour but I'm relatively certain of what I'm going to find out.

@MrsDragon: I'm sorry. Hoping there is some sort of explanation for the bleeding that doesn't involve a loss.

@MrsDragon: I'm really hoping it's just a random bleed and you will get good news later today.

@Nutella: I like that! I want something meaningful that's not in your face, if that makes sense. Yours seems to strike that balance perfectly.

Thanks everyone.

@Zbug: I'm sad -- not as sharply sad as I was after a 6-week loss, because I was barely pregnant this time, but sad. Feeling those "why did I even bother going to the doctor/calling in/having hope" feelings, exacerbated by a needless ultrasound and a doctor who was kinda giving me the why-are-you-here-so-early side eye.

I burst into tears in the ultrasound room and the tech was like "I know, 4 weeks 1 day, why did they even send you in here?" I'm hoping someone will call me tomorrow because nobody did today, but I had the u/s at 11:30-ish and the clinic closed at noon.

Mostly terrified of what comes next. I don't know how deeply into investigating this I want to go. And I am probably going to slap the next person who asks me when we're having another kid or why we don't have one or if we're planning on another one.