After my few days of intense melodrama, something clicked tonight and I'm feeling very peaceful and happy! So glad. I think it was just the overwhelming shock (happy shock) that after trying for so long our first IUI worked! It's hard to believe and grasp and embrace it without fear of losing it. Being exhausted doesn't help much either. But, I'm feeling great and confident now and looking at statistics in my favor (such as..75% chance I WON'T have a miscarriage instead of 25% that I will). The odds are certainly in our favor and I have had no reason to doubt that the baby is healthy, growing and will enter this world in January! I can't imagine anything worse that the loss of a child, at any age or stage in development and I'm so sorry for the parents who have been through it. But, I can't dwell on that and bring myself into such a dark place when I should be feeling joy.
Thank you ladies for helping me to see the light!