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Having heart palpitations....tested with FMU today and digital (my last one in the box) was negative. FRER still brings up a line, but I'd hope it would be darker by this point. I'm sitting here willing the clock to tick faster so I can call my OB and get blood drawn.

**I am not complaining, I am GRATEFUL for BFP, but fearing it isn't sticking.....thanks again to everyone for your excitement. I feel it and send it back to you as you wait for your own pretty pluses**

@ChiCalGoBee: The best advice I can give you is to step away from the pregnancy tests (easier to say than do, I realize). I drove myself bat sh*t crazy with those things - it all depends on dye count and even now at 16 weeks pregnant, I don't feel confident that the pregnancy test would be dark enough or darken fast enough to my liking. Digitals are SO finicky. If I had all the different tests, I would take them to make you feel better, but unfortunately I don't. But I promise you that I took one at 10 weeks (after I had actually seen bebe) and it looked really suspicious to me - not dark enough to my liking.

All this said, you are pregnant today, regardless of what the stupid digi test says. Don't miss out on the fun, excitement, and sheer joy of the first few weeks because of worrying!!

@ChiCalGoBee: You are pregnant and everything will be fine. Sending super positive, sticky vibes to the little bean!

@BakerBee, @radish: thanks so much for the reassurance. I didn't even consider taking apart the digitalis but I did! Photo below. Lower is from yesterday which was positive, upper from today was neg. to me yesterday seemed less positive than today so I'm not sure I trust them!

Doctor update: got in with internist today, and did PG urine test. She initially said it was negative, then her nurse came in and said its "very slightly positive." Not sure what that means . She then said my home tests could all be "false positives" or I could be miscarrying. I haven't much liked my internist before now, and this was pretty much the nail in the coffin...no matter what.

Regardless, they did a blood test so I'm now going to be waiting and watching for my phone today.

@ChiCalGoBee: Aww, girl. I'm sorry about your doctor! Hoping you get good results from the blood test

Okay for those of you who didn't see my post on the March board, here's the situation: I took this this morning with SMU it's light, but DH and I both see it. Shouldn't it be darker by now though? AF is expected today. I had some born spotting when checking my cervix, but I took the test anyway. Help!! I'm totally freaking out that it's a false positive OR it's a chemical.

@HolisticMama: wait, are you saying Nope you can't see it or nope it shouldn't be darker? Confused. Either way I'll update you guys tomorrow. I actually might try to hold my pee all day and take another one after work tonight.

@HolisticMama: okay good, thanks! I'm still going crazy though.

I see it in the second pic!!!! Woohoo. Keep testing! It is so lovely to be getting some BFPs coming in. Can't wait to hear!!!

@MrsHansen82: I see it!! Congrats!!

@ChiCalGoBee: Sorry to hear you are going through this confusion. It can be so worrying, and a weird feeling not knowing whether to be excited or not. I hope that you get some news soon, and that it is good news!

So.....the blood test was POSITIVE!!!!!! For now, I was able to prove my mean internist wrong. HOPING HOPING HOPING it stays that way. I asked for the beta number but the nurse who called didn't have it. She just said I am "definitely" pregnant, and congratulated me three times. She apologized for the light urine test. She said, "Our tests are super sensitive, not sure why yours took so long." **Do we find that to be true, that doc's tests are super sensitive? I figured they were dollar-store tests so not sensitive? Who knows.

I am still spotting but for today I am grateful. I have no control over the next few months, but I will do everything in my power to help this little ball of cells turn into a bonafide baby. Again, I am thanking all of you times 1,000,000 for being here for me. You're the BEST, Bees!

@ChiCalGoBee: Yay! That's great news!
@MrsHansen82: FX for you!

I know I don't post on this board much, but I need to vent, and since this is really only my second cycle, I figured this would be a better place to do it. All my life I've had fairly regular cycles. Now all of a sudden, as soon as I start TTC, my cycles are ridiculously long. My last one was 62 days and now it's CD27 and I still haven't ovulated. I got all excited because I got an almost positive OPK this morning, but this evening it's back to being very light. I am so frustrated that my body isn't working the way it's supposed to!

@HolisticMama: They didn't say so-they said follow-up is with my OB. That appointment is in 25 days (not like I'm counting ). I'm hopeful that if I'm blessed enough to make it to 8 weeks that there will be an ultrasound or, at the very least, a doppler to try and find a heartbeat? I'm going to try my hardest to make it to that appointment and not break the news to family beforehand. I'm seeing them about 2 weeks after that appointment, and it'd be so amazing to share the news in person. Whenever I find myself staring at the phone wanting to call my mom and tell her, I back up and imagine how much more fun it will be to do it in person.

I'll seen an OB. The good news is that my OB's wife is actually a midwife, and from what I understand, they are willing to work together with you if you'd like. I'm definitely going to explore that option. The reasons I chose him are: 1) His office is 10 minutes from my house, and 2 minutes from my job. 2) He is under my insurance, which ensures that my entire pre-natal experience from today-(FX FX FX!) a healthy baby should be verrry reasonable as far as cost goes and 3) (and most important), he is highly recommended by my neighbor, a pediatrician who works with tons of OBs and likes him best.

That's probably more information than you wanted to know, but there you are!

@Aria: I felt kind of the same on the first two cycles. I had always had obvious O pains and EWCM then once TTC came around, it was almost completely gone!! Hoping things get better for you, and vent all you want!! We want to hear it!

So just tested and when I went to pee, I had about a quarter teaspoon of dark red/brown blood come out. Still cramping so I'm not very optimistic at this point. The FRER has only slightly gotten darker. Thinking it's a chemical.

@MrsHansen82: I responded on the other thread too, but I believe it takes HcG 48-72 hours to double, so frequently the lines won't get noticeably darker for a day or two. And I have heard from others (although clearly not experience myself), that there can be some spotting in the beginning, just due to the little one burrowing in deeper. I wouldn't panic yet!! I know easier said than done.

@Kbee: @theotherstark: thanks ladies, feeling pessimistic still, but at least now I know we can conceive. If it doesn't work, we'll just try try again.