yikes.

I got in a little tiff with my husband this morning and as i was commuting into work i called him to talk about it - and ended up crying the whole way in, and just feeling completely overwhelmed/frustrated/alone in this whole ttc process.

it's funny - i feel like I am sort of denying the fact that it's not happening right away - admitting to it makes me feel shitty. so I don't want to talk about it or say it out loud. you know?

then, I haven't been talking to my husband about it because I don't want him to think i'm crazy, or to make him feel upset/overwhelmed aslo - but really, i need his support and he's really the only one I can talk to. so I've been semi-resenting him, when really, it's all MY fault because I'm not talking to him & letting him know how I feel.

at the same time - i am actually OK if this doesn't happen immediately - so WHY am I obsessing about ttc, on this board, constantly wondering what's wrong, googling, taking new vitamins, etc etc?

I think a lot has to do with the fact that i HATE my job - so I'm focusing on this, and it's not happening... but yeah. I feel like i need to take a step back, re-evaluate, assure myself that it will BE OK and just enjoy life.

I'm not the only one who feels like this right? Yikes... needed that SUPER cry today... feeling a little better already.