yikes.
I got in a little tiff with my husband this morning and as i was commuting into work i called him to talk about it - and ended up crying the whole way in, and just feeling completely overwhelmed/frustrated/alone in this whole ttc process.
it's funny - i feel like I am sort of denying the fact that it's not happening right away - admitting to it makes me feel shitty. so I don't want to talk about it or say it out loud. you know?
then, I haven't been talking to my husband about it because I don't want him to think i'm crazy, or to make him feel upset/overwhelmed aslo - but really, i need his support and he's really the only one I can talk to. so I've been semi-resenting him, when really, it's all MY fault because I'm not talking to him & letting him know how I feel.
at the same time - i am actually OK if this doesn't happen immediately - so WHY am I obsessing about ttc, on this board, constantly wondering what's wrong, googling, taking new vitamins, etc etc?
I think a lot has to do with the fact that i HATE my job - so I'm focusing on this, and it's not happening... but yeah. I feel like i need to take a step back, re-evaluate, assure myself that it will BE OK and just enjoy life.
I'm not the only one who feels like this right? Yikes... needed that SUPER cry today... feeling a little better already.
But more and it helped. I show him my chart, just here and there, to keep him in the loop and it's really helped. This process can make the best of us a little loopy. Hang in there, it does get better!
For some reason, the drive to work is the time when it usually hits me. The good news is that after crying it all out, I normally feel better for a few days - maybe that will be the case for you too? I hope you have a good weekend that helps make everything feel a little bit better.
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