how long did it take you to feel connected to your second pregnancy?
how long did it take you to feel connected to your second pregnancy?
coconut / 8498 posts
Basically until we had our 20 week scan. Mainly because I was too busy with LO to think about it much. The scan was about the same time as kicks started, plus we found out we're having another girl. I think I more quickly connected with #2 than I did with LO in utero! (That took almost until my due date)
GOLD / grapefruit / 4555 posts
I think I treated both pregnancies about the same, honestly. Shock, sadness, denial, acceptance, then slowly embraced it. I will say it was faster for me to connect to my second one than my first one but that's because I hid my first one for so long.
Long story about all that but happy to share
persimmon / 1472 posts
It took me a long time... a really really really long time. I think was I was in the middle of the second trimester and I started feeling the baby move, I started connecting better. I mentally distanced myself from the pregnancy because of two m/c's within 6 months of each other - I just couldn't bear to be attached and lose another one. And typing it out now breaks my heart. When I was pregnant with DD, we started taking weekly belly pics at 7 weeks and with #2 I didn't even take the first belly pic until 14 weeks and still don't take them regularly. I kept having a fear that something would happen. DH had a hard time understanding why I avoided his weekly alarm to take pictures but I think he finally understands why. I still feel horrible I didn't document this pregnancy as well.
pomegranate / 3643 posts
@NaturallyCathy: I would listen if you want to share!
LO#2 was an unplanned surprise. (I'm saying 'surprise' instead of 'accident' to be more positive...) The kids will be 18mo apart. I had a tough time, especially in the first half. I'm just now getting a little excited at 31 weeks. The kicks help a lot. And to be honest, the occasional "scare" helps (like if he's having a quiet day, forcing myself to do a kick count) because I remember I really do care about this kiddo.
To be honest, it's a lot of fake it till you make it. Knitting or sewing something for the baby also helps, though I haven't actually even finished a project for him. I know I will love him, but it is harder.
I've been thinking about taking LO#2 on a "date" day. Eat a bunch of healthy pregnancy food. Go to the pool. Finish sewing his quilt. Just focus on being pregnant with him for a day. I had so much more free time to do that with #1!
pineapple / 12234 posts
Not until I met her! I was so focused on DS, I feel like I didn't have time to feel connected.
pineapple / 12793 posts
I was feeling very disconnected until I had some spotting. Then I immediately connected and realized how much I want this baby. Mamabear came out quickly.
@NaturallyCathy: I'd like to hear (read) your story!
squash / 13208 posts
It was the same for both - once I found out gender and we picked a name I was able to connect!
GOLD / grapefruit / 4555 posts
@jedeve: Both my littles were unplanned. With my first, we found out after I was about 15 weeks along. It was summer and I was working two on campus jobs plus taking a full set of classes. I'd lost my period the previous summer when I was just taking one class and one on campus job. It scared me but when my period returned I just chalked it up to stress. So when my period disappeared the next summer I honestly didn't stress about it until I felt the changes. We took a home pregnancy test which was very much positive even though it wasn't a digi and, I admit, it ruined me. Hubs and I were engaged. I was in school still and we weren't ready for a family. We were still finishing up planning our wedding for that October!
Well we went to the doctor's office and got it all confirmed, pictures and what not, then we stressed. We discussed options - abortion was out, merely because we were so far along and we didn't have the funds. Truthfully I'm not sure I could have gone through it but I always see it as an option for anyone. I couldn't do adoption - if I'm going to carry the child, I'm going to keep it. So we decided to keep it and waited a month or so until we told our parents because I wanted one more semester of school.
Fast forward: we were married October 2011, our son was born January 2012 and then by August/September, I started to wonder again. I was on the pill (just like before) but symptoms were adding up faster because I'd been through it once before and recently. I knew what to expect.This time we bought a digital and got a very quick positive. We went through the same list: abort or keep? But figured since we've already done this once we might as well do it again. We didn't want DS to be an only child but we weren't ready to add another one either. I mean, we were just getting to the fun age! Now I had to do it all over again!
I think I was pretty much angry at both babies for most of the second trimester. I didn't hate them, it wasn't their fault, but it certainly didn't fill me with any maternal joy. It took until after DS was born to really connect with him and only after a month or two. With DD it took a lot less time but that's because 1) I was no longer a new mom, and 2) I wanted to show DS how to love her (if that makes any sense). I love both my children and don't regret them. I don't even regret how I felt at the time when I was pregnant with them. But I admit it will probably be easier when we add a third one because they'll be the only planned one.
Sorry for the essay!
pear / 1699 posts
Yay, congrats! Geeze, I miss everything since I'm not gold! I'll have to fix that soon!
I also didn't really connect with the baby while pregnant since I was so busy with J. I was obviously happy but often forgot I was pregnant - and always had to look up to see how far along I was.
honeydew / 7091 posts
I am 26 weeks with #2, and still not connected. I was pretty connected with L right away, so I don't know what's up. Part of me is worried that I somehow subconsciously know that something is wrong, which then freaks me out and makes me distance myself even more.
I fully expect to not connect until she's born. Sure makes the pregnancy fly by though!!
bananas / 9118 posts
I didn't feel super connected with #1 to begin with, I connected more with #2 once I knew he was healthy and looking good during our 12 week NT scan (and found out it was a then too!)
I still had some distance from the baby during the rest of pregnancy and was so busy surviving my toddler and fell for #2 more when he arrived. Now that he is 2 months old and smiling, I am a total goner! I have enjoyed the newborn stage much more this time around having been through it before.
@NaturallyCathy: very, very well written post, I think your process is very helpful and honest for others in a similar situation. You have done a fabulous job with your little darlings!
honeydew / 7283 posts
@sorrycharlie: Thank you for starting this thread. I'm having a hard time feeling connected with baby #2 and of course I feel pretty guilty about that. It's helpful to read that others have felt the same way!
I think that part of it is that I had SUCH a hard time with M's newborn days (horrible colic, some ppd) that I'm dreading what it will be like this time. It's also been pretty horrible dealing with morning sickness and exhaustion and chasing after a toddler. I have my 12 week nt scan tomorrow so I'm hoping that and announcing to more people soon will help me get more excited about this pregnancy!
Also - I just keep looking at my daughter and thinking that I could never love another child like I love her! I know this isn't true, but it's such a strong feeling. I also find myself feeling badly that having a new baby will take so much of my time and attention away from M. Realistically I know that I'm giving her the gift of a sibling, but I'm sure there will be some hard moments. Pregnancy is definitely different this time around!
GOLD / grapefruit / 4555 posts
@lemondrop: Thanks hon And that's why I share. I don't want any one of us to ever feel alone in their thoughts or emotion. Someone else has been there, has felt that, has worried and wondered, does this make me a bad parent? No, it just makes you human. I try to be an open book so that hopefully I can help others even if they aren't ready to talk yet. I've been there and it's all going to be okay sorta thing.
hostess / watermelon / 14932 posts
@coacheswife123: @Mrsjets: hahah! i forgot i made that thread gold. I don't know why I did actually. maybe I'll post a new one or somehow ungold it!
honeydew / 7295 posts
@NaturallyCathy: wow what an amazing story. Your honesty is beautiful. Not that I needed any more reasons to love you but love love love! More people should be so honest.
hostess / watermelon / 14932 posts
@swurlygurl: that's part of my issue. I connected with LO1 right away. I think part of me still is resistant - I don't mean that in a bad way, but I just can't stop thinking, "poor baby2, I won't love it as much as LO1. poor baby2, is gonna have a giant desk in their room and I don't even really care (baby1 had a decked out nursery)." etc.
hostess / watermelon / 14932 posts
@MrsF: same with the last part. I can't imagine loving another as much as my LO. ugh.
and I'm almost the opposite..I'm so nervous about the possibility of a boy, because I loved my pregnancy (anticipation of birth anyway) and newborn days with LO. aside from the IL drama, those were seriously the happiest days of my life. I almost want to redo them..even though realistically it'll be SO different. I feel like with another girl I'll get that chance..with a boy I will not. horrible, I know.
GOLD / grapefruit / 4555 posts
@MrsMccarthy: Thank babe I admit at the time I wasn't as secure and very much more emotional about all of it than I am now but I'm in a good place in my life and I don't see a point in glossing over the past. It was what it was - I didn't relish every kick, I didn't post the scans on the fridge, I didn't start buying baby clothes or anything 'normal' moms do because I was pretty much in a state of shock from finding out to giving birth.
But I love them so much and I appreciate them. Even when we're all whining and yelling and crying, which is rare, we're also all laughing and cuddling and being a family. It is what it is, a beautiful mess. I'm grateful for my littles and I'll be just as grateful for our next one.
@sorrycharlie: I had a lot of the same thoughts. That I already loved DS so much, how on earth was I going to love this next little more? I also worried that it would take as long or longer to lover her once she was born since I had such a hard time adjusting the first time. And the nursery? Neither kids have a nursery yet so I'm looking forward to planning a room that'll work for both of them to grow into upstairs (once we're upstairs). And DD shared a space with my desk for nearly a year Totally normal.
blogger / coconut / 8306 posts
@sorrycharlie: I felt so connected with Chloe from the absolute start. I was cheesy and would talk to her, my husband would rub my belly and talk to her, and when I started feeling movement it was incredible. I felt like I could have "conversations" with her -- if I poked my belly, she'd kick back! I couldn't wait to start the nursery and it was hard waiting until we knew the sex because I didn't want a neutral nursery. I felt like I knew her from the start.
This time.. It's so hard to admit! I'm was feeling very disconnected from the entire experience. After having sufferered three losses and all the complications in this pregnancy, I just couldn't be excited. I thought the joy would set it when I hit the second tri, but my worry just expanded: could I have a second tri miscarriage? A missed miscarriage? And the complications only compound my fear. It wasn't until I was 400 miles from home, on an island, and headed to a hospital on stilts that I let my guard down. I sobbed uncontrollably. I realized how connected I actually am to this little girl, but have been too scared to admit it for fear of losing her. Now I feel tremendously guilty for "losing" the first 20 weeks I had with her.
cherry / 156 posts
This is so good to read! I found out last night that (surprise!) I'm pregnant with #2. LO and New Baby will be 27 months apart if all goes normally. We're both shocked but not. We weren't trying but our prevention was pretty half-assed. I think I'll come around relatively quickly. Pre-baby we planned on two kids, two years apart then once we had LO decided that next year...maybe....sounded better. I keep going back and looking at the sticks halfway thinking I read them wrong.... Guess I need to call my midwife's office on Monday... What else am I supposed to do? With my first I was baby crazy and if not excited to give up wine,etc , I was at least happy to. This morning I made myself a cup of tea then realized crap. I'm supposed to cut out caffeine. (Oh well. Baby's not connected to my blood supply yet, right?) oh! And sushi? How did I forget about sushi? I have a lot of relearning to do...
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