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@marionberry: DH has actually been really awesome in the help department. I can't complain!

Dinner was literally throwing some meat and sliced onion in the crockpot with some soy sauce, etc. nothing big; I'm just so glad I feel like cooking again! I didn't the whole time I was pregnant.

Hope you get some sleep!

@Mrs squirreld: It's next Thursday - a whole week away. The tech was actually pretty horrible, I was in too much of a shock to ask any questions at the time but she gave nothing - "no heartbeat, you're 6 weeks and measuring behind, you feel pregnant? ok get dressed and go across the hall for blood work, and schedule another US for next week" she left and that was it. I kind of can't believe no one actually explained to me what was going on or gave me any kind of comfort - DH and I were literally left wandering the dr's office after she left we didn't know where to go or what to do!

@marionberry: They said 2 days for blood results, considering today is friday and monday is a holiday, i'm assuming tuesday will be the earliest. I've been googling enough ultrasound pics at my gestational age to know what i should have seen on the screen, when i didn't see it (it just kind of looked like a yolk sac but there must have been a fetal pole since she did take a measurement) my heart kind of sank. and then she put the cursor over it to see the heartbeat, when i saw that flat line i kind of knew what was going on.

Thanks for your thoughts, this has been kind of a crappy year i need a break!

@marionberry: I am hoping for good outcome but i'm already prepared for the loss. I actually just called the office to talk to someone about the US becaue NO ONE explained what happened - so i'm waiting to hear from the midwife at my practice. Even if I was measuring at 6 weeks, i feel like i should have seen a heartbeat, right? i am so bummed out and im sitting here at work like a stupid zombie

@chibee: I don't know what you're "supposed to see" at certain weeks. I went in at 6 weeks and did hear a heartbeat, but I'm pretty sure I've heard of others who didn't that early. In my ultrasound it looked like a yolk sac with a little worm hanging off of it. I know how rough it is to sit at work when you're experiencing something like this. Could you leave early? Take a sick day?

@chibee: I'm so sorry. I know that's not what you wanted to hear. As far as a miscarriage, only time will tell. Sometimes the further along you are, the more common it is to require a D&C. The positive about that is that sometimes they're able to determine if there was a chromosomal abnormality that caused it. But I'm still going to hope that maybe things look bad now but will still turn out positively.

@chibee: I wouldn't know how either. Not sure it's possible. Is there something you and DH can do to keep you busy?

I never check this thread but something told me to read it today...
@chibee: I can relate to your u/s experience and just want to say I'm sorry. DH and I left with so many thoughts roaming through our heads because nobody knew what to do or say when we were measuring behind when I started spotting. I really wish people were more understanding when it came to these situations. *hugs* keeping you in my thoughts.

@marionberry: I didn't do so well keeping busy - I was so mopey this weekend! but i definitely feel better now, maybe being at work is helping me keep my mind off of it a little?

@chibee: I have no idea how I missed notification of this thread, but oh honey, I will be thinking positive thoughts for you on Thursday. I know this is probably the last thing you want to do right now, but if you'd like to pop over to PA I will give you the biggest freaking hug ever!

@StrawberryBee: @Cherrybee: Thank you for your thoughts, it's been pretty hard and I am having a hard time keeping positive but I almost want this whole ordeal over with.

The good side to this, i guess, is that now DH is all about trying, if this pregnancy has ended. He suggested every single day. Just, no. I will seriously die from exhaustion. But it's nice because we have had such difficulty being on the same page when we were ttc'ing earlier.

@chibee: I can understand that. Good to hear that your DH is on the same page as you, and as Cherrybee said, supporting you right now. Lots of hugs sweetie.

@chibee - so sorry, but thankful you'll feel some closure. I can't believe how awful your US tech was. I know they probably do not think they are in the "customer service" business - but they are. I'm sure your doctor would not approve of her behavior. I don't blame you for wanting/going elsewhere. But maybe so this poor behavior doesn't happen to someone else you should write a letter to your doctor or office administration and explain what happened and how you will be choosing to go elsewhere in the future.

Hang in there!

@chibee: This actually happened to a coworker of mine, and her daughter (second pregnancy, obviously) is now celebrating her second birthday. Sometimes it's better just knowing, one way or the other, instead of being stuck in limbo. Hugs to you!

The tech's indifference is completely inexcusable. No one in the medical profession should have 'just a job'. I agree with @theknest: that a letter is in order.

@theknest: i usually am not so sensitive about these things, but this was a really big deal to me, it was my first pregnancy after having gone through so much to get there and i felt like it wasn't a big deal to her whatsoever. I do feel like writing a letter, maybe once all this is over i will sit down and give them a piece of my mind!

@Cherrybee: @StrawberryBee: thank you ladies - i hope all that i'm going through ends up with a happy ending. i want that so bad! I know i seem like i have a really positive, cheery outlook on things right now but it took me a couple of mopey days to get here. But i feel like i got my closure. I know this sounds weird but i almost feel better that it was a blighted ovum and not a fetus that died, since it never got to develop into an embryo i feel like there never was a baby to mourn - if that makes sense? Either way, I'll keep you guys posted after the procedure (6:30am UGH!)

@chibee: I think that's a great way of looking it it. I hope today goes smoothly, lovely lady.

All went smoothly today (minus incompetent nurse jabbing my left hand and right arm repeatedly to put an IV in) and i slept for a good long time after, and made myself a pb&j sandwich on white bread as a treat! All in all, although it's a crappy situation, it wasn't really that bad today. I'm really hoping the bleeding is not as bad as it was with my LEEP - these pads are killing me i feel like i am wearing a huge diaper!

@Mrs squirreld: Thank you so much for the heads up!