I'm afraid that I will not be able to pump enough to keep up with H's demands at daycare. I usually send around 9 oz. of breast milk to daycare, and since my pump decided to die, my output has steadily decreased. On Thursday, I was able to get around 8 oz. Friday it dropped to 5 oz. with the hospital grade pump (Ameda Elite). In one pump session today, I barely got an ounce and a half.

I did not pump at all over the weekend but I nursed on demand and continue to nurse overnight. I can hear her swallowing, so I know she is getting something when she nurses. If I cannot get much more today, I will have no choice but to supplement tomorrow, as I only have about 12 oz. in my freezer stash.

She has never had formula, so I have no idea about how to mix it, if I mix it with breast milk, or even if she will take it. She eats two meals of solids, one snack, and has water with her meals in addition to 2-3 bottles of breast milk. I have a canister of Enfamil for Supplementation that I've had since February.

I am heartbroken. I know that supplementing is not the end of the world and that formula is not evil, but I really wanted to EBF for a year and to fall short of my goal makes me really sad and angry at my body. I'm hoping that by eating all the things and drinking tons of water, I can bounce back soon (I'm in the two weeks between ovulating and my period and NOPE not pregnant).