As some of you know from my previous posts, I put in my notice from my teaching postion to be a SAHM. I work in an alternative school for students with behavioral, mental, and academic issues. While I love my students individually, being a first-year-teacher in such a crazy environment was too much for me. I was on the brink of a nervous breakdown and couldn't be the mom that I needed to be for my four-month-old.

So, today is my last day and I just walked around and told all of my students. I was told to prepare myself for hurtful and negative comments. Apparently, when teachers have quit in the past students have cheered and were incredibly disrespectful. I mentally prepared myself and walked into each classroom expecting the worst.

I think I would have preferred the worst to what I actually got. They cried! My hard ass students, that other schools couldn't handle, cried. One of my classes gave me a giant group hug and all had students offer up their babysitting services so that I would stay.

I am overwhelmed with emotion. I wasn't expecting that kind of reaction. It is making me second-guess my decision and feel awful about my choice.

I know I am being selfish. I want to SAH with my son. I hate myself because I am hurting these kids in the process.

Please tell me I am not as horrible as I feel.