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@raintreebee: I thought it was too early to know for you but just wanted you to know I am thinking of you!!!
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@MK0180: I have been doing acu for about six weeks. It is relaxing & I am hoping it is helping. My acu told me not to TTC for 3 months while she worked on the quality of my eggs. I am going along with her herbs & bone broth, but I can't bring myself to prevent pregnancy at this stage, even still I am enjoying it. Good luck!
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Good news: My husband's SA results came in and things are great. Phew!
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Bad news: That hunch I had about my HSG is true. My doctor noticed "a questionable area (filling defect) inside the uterus which may be a polyp (fleshy growth)"...So I have to schedule yet another invasive test (saline sonogram) during my next cycle. I'm a mess, and Dr. Google/Mayo isn't helping.When I started the whole doctor visit thing, I wanted answers. I wanted to know what was wrong, why I couldn't get pregnant. But secretly, I hoped that I was ok. And it would still magically happen for us.
I'm a mess.
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@sweetooth: I'm really sorry to hear the news about your HSG. I definitely know what you mean about a part of you hoping that everything would be ok. I was there, too. But, try to hold onto the great news about your DH (yay!!! - one issue off the table) and you'll have more answers soon. *HUGS*
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@sweetooth:
So sorry about your results, and I know what you mean about wanting answers but being afraid of what you'll hear at the same time. Think of it like this - every step/procedure/result is moving you closer to your baby! And try to stay away from Dr. Google, he's a jerk 
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I had a quasi-public ugly cry today, in front of my in-laws and their in-laws.
Today was my newborn nephew's bris, and DH and I have been trying really hard to hold it all together so that we can support his sister through the whole pregnancy and birth process. We were hoping we could put on a brave face one last time for the bris, especially as we were asked to be godparents. I was actually starting to look forward to it a little bit. Then her SIL (who got married at the same time as us) walked in and when she took her coat off I saw that she was 5 or 6 months pregnant with her second baby. I lost it. MIL and DH took me into another room while I cried.
During the bris there was an unexpected part where the godparents were supposed to pass around the baby on a pillow, and the pregnant girl's husband (they're also godparents) went first and her mom yelled out "don't worry, he's had a baby!" which was extremely hurtful because we were the only ones there who don't have any children. I was still in shock when it was my turn and the girl was passing the baby to me, so I actually shook my head and said no. I feel bad because I didn't mean to reject the baby, but I couldn't take it from her, especially after her mom's comment.
I just feel all kinds of awful.
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@Sweettooth. I am so sorry about your HSG. I am thinking of you. I know what you mean about wanting answers/not wanting answers. Like Rachel said though, you are one step closer.
@Spaniellove. What a nightmare of a day. Poor thing. Wish I could give you a hug. Infertility has got to be one of the most lonley feelings in the world, and events like you were at today make it seem like no one understands what you are going through. The sad part is, most of them don't. Hope you can lean on DH (and us, of course). -
@sweetooth: I am sorry about your results
I understand about wanting to know but not really wanting to know - but I hope the sonogram can give you more concrete answers in giving you the next steps in achieving a baby Hugs@spaniellove: I am sorry about the crappy day - I think, in some way or another, we've all been there and know exactly how you are feeling. It's hard to get people to understand what you're going through but it sounds like you have a great support system with your husband
And even if we do not know you in real life at least there's the magical world of the internet to vent and know that when you do you know it's to those who do understand.
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@sweetooth: Something that I have learned during this whole TTC thing is to stay away from Dr. Google!!! He really isn't your friend. You have to remember that getting answers is a good thing and will get you closer to your baby. I had an HSG this month and will go in for a saline sonogram next month. My HSG is normal, but my doctor just wants to check everything out. So it is a good thing that your doctor wants to do more tests - he is being thorough. Plus, I believe that all of these tests are just getting us used to going through pregnancy/birth. I am going to be so used to having my legs in stirrups and people doing strange things in places that they should not be!
I haven't posted on this board yet, but I am right there with you girls in this whole TTC mess. I have to keep believing that I will be a mother and that everything I am going through is worth it. It's hard to be positive all of the time, and trust me, I am not always positive, but you just have to believe!
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@spaniellove: Oh, my, goodness. I am so sorry about your awful day. I had a public ugly cry the other night also. We were in SF and had gone out to dinner after the game and I don't know what came over me (I was under the influence) and I just, I dunno. Lost it. Utterly hysterical. I cried at the restaurant, I cried on the walk to find a cab, I cried the entire cab ride to the hotel, then I cried for like an hour in the shower at the hotel. So basically, I just wanted you to know you're not alone. Huuuuugs!
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@sweetooth: I'm so sorry about your results =( I know exactly how you feel, because I was the same way. Deep down, I knew something was wrong, but seeing the pathology report of my biopsy, and seeing the results of my lab work still upsets me a teeny bit.*
*by a teeny bit, I mean like a lot. Lol.
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@sweetooth: Oh sweetie, I'm sorry. What kinds of horrible things did Dr. Google say? Perhaps we can debunk them for you. Hugs!
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@sweetooth: I'm so sorry...it is a sinking feeling to actually get the bad news. But if it's something that can be fixed, then perhaps that's the step forward you've been hoping for, just not in the way you were expecting.
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@sweetooth: I am so sorry but hopeful that the next test shows ther is no reason to worry & / or it's easily treatable. Thinking of you!
@spaniellove: I really hate that you had to deal with that today. People really can be unaware of how insensitive they are. Hugs!
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@sweetooth: I know how much it sucks to find out something's wrong you :(. But I keep telling myself that it's better to know what's wrong and be able to come up with a plan of treatment, than to just be told "unexplained infertility".
@spaniellove: Hugs to you for the awful day
AFM, I actually had a great follow up appointment yesterday with my RE. We went over all the b/w and SA and everything looked good/normal. She also showed me the sonogram pics of my ovaries and I could see the cysts all around them, which was interesting. Definitely have PCOS :-S. So our original plan was to start Clomid next cycle, **but** when I mentioned I was on CD6 she said even though they normally start on CD3 or 5, we could start that day!
So they called in a prescription for me and I started taking it last night! We also decided that I'll do an Ovidrel trigger (a little nervous about giving myself the shot) and timed intercourse. Oh, and the other cool thing is that we're going to start at 50mg, and do sonogram monitoring and if it doesn't work, they'll immediately up my dose to 100mg (and then 150 if still no progress) instead of having to wait another cycle.
Our next steps are to get an ultrasound either 10/23 or 10/24 to check the progress of the follicles. I'm so excited!
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Thanks guys. I think my MIL made it worse when she emailed me later to say I should feel bad b/c that girl had anxiety during her pregnancies and my SIL has had a loss and continues to have anxiety. While I'm sorry for her loss, I can't forget that when I had a loss years ago this same MIL told me I should have an abortion if I happened to still be pregnant. And she's telling me about people who haven't had IF like we have - they have children that they could conceive whenever, however they wanted.
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@MrsCB: That sounds like perfect timing! I'm so glad it worked out to start right away; having to wait the extra month is such a bummer. My fingers are crossed for you that this does the trick!
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@MrsCB: Oooooo, that's so exciting!! Fingers crossed for you!
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I had my first acupuncture appointment today! I think it went well. She asked a TON of very detailed questions, especially about bodily fluids.
Most of the needles were in my belly/uterus area, but there were some in my arms and legs. I barely felt anything, which was nice.
When it was over, she gave me lots of things to read about what she thinks my issue is: dampness/weak spleen. And she asked me to start charting again...
Feeling optimistic about the whole thing
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You all are wonderful
I disappeared for a bit and worked through my emotions. Still working actually...It's amazing how this starts to affect all parts of life, you know? Work, social, love life...it can all be too much sometimes.
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@greenthumb: You're right, the good news about my husband's SA is definitely something to focus on. And we are on our way to more answers. I just have to stay positive. Thanks for the hugs Hope you're doing well! We miss you around here but I'm so happy that you're off of this board and onto happier boards! I hope to join you one day.
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@shutterbug: You're right, every piece of information puts us one step closer to our baby. I need to remember that when I feel down. And I will try my best to stop consulting Dr. Google I know better!
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@spaniellove: I think we wrote simultaneously the other day. I'm sorry that you were down in the dumps too. What a tough position to be in. I think I would have lost it too. Your husband sounds so supportive. I hope you're able to take a break from all of these baby events soon. That has to be so hard. I want to give your MIL a good talking to!I'm trying to think about all of this as a step forward. It's just hard when I had my hopes up about getting pregnant this cycle after my HSG.
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@raintreebee: Thank you Having the support of this group is really comforting.
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@mk0180: I hope the sonogram show a sign in my uterus with a big thumbs up - saying "This girl can achieve pregnancy!" Wouldn't that be fun? Thanks for understanding about wanting/not wanting results. I know that the "head in the sand" method is unproductive.
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@justdarling: thanks for posting and relating! You've got a great perspective, with the idea that my doctor is being thorough. And you're right, getting answers is good. And as uncomfortable as all of these exams are, you're also right in saying that they will get us used to "having my legs in stirrups and people doing strange things in places that they should not be!" Thanks for making me smile Hope you get the answers you're looking for too.
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@grace: thank you I think I'll refrain from quoting Dr. Google...I'm trying to just move forward and not assess anything until I know more. I was just a little trigger happy when I finally got some sort of "diagnosis" - but I have to think that this is just another step. It's not a diagnosis. I won't know what's really happening until 11/15. I just need to cool it until then...easier said than done!
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@kentuckygirl: you're right - maybe the next test will show that everything is ok, and there's no need to worry. I think part of the hurt though is the months that keep on passing...and the realization that I probably won't get pregnant in 2012.
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@mrscb: you're right - I didn't want to be told that it's unexplained - but I also wanted to think I just had bad timing. I do hope that whatever it is there is treatment, and success around the corner.Happy to hear your husband's SA was good, that you have a plan and that you have been able to start Clomid. That's super exciting!
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@MrsCB: eee sounds soo promising/exciting! Keep us posted on how it's going!
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@MrsCB: That's great news - fingers cross for you this cycle
@Mrs.Someone: I'm glad your appointment went so well
Makes me look forward to mine next week. I'm pretty excited!
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@Mrs.Someone: I had my first acupuncture appointment yesterday as well! Curious to see how it goes for both of us
I am so behind on this thread, so I'm sorry to anyone I'm unintentionally ignoring. But I'm excited and hopeful for each and every one of us, and I'm glad we have this spot to vent about insensitive relatives and friends!!! ha (I'm not even going to get started on the ridiculous things my sister-in-law said over the weekend, I'll just get cranky again).
Anyone have fun weekend plans ahead? I'll be laying low and sipping ginger tea while wearing fuzzy socks to try to warm my alleged "cold uterus".
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Has anyone had such doubts about their RE/clinic that they actually switched clinics?
I actually made an appointment with the other big clinic in town today. Although I've been looking for good reviews about my clinic, I've only been finding posts by women who seem traumatized and angry about their experience there, and if our initial consultation was so bad it all seems to tell me to run before the stakes get higher.
At least this weekend we're going on a road trip with our dog! Like old, non-TTC times!
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@spaniellove: I would go with your gut and if you're not comfortable, definitely switch to another clinic! Even if they're perfectly capable of performing their job and (medically) treating you well, if you don't have a comfortable relationship with them, you'll dread your appointments rather than being excited/hopeful, and you might be less open with your doctor than you would be with someone you feel more comfortable with. The whole thing is unpleasant enough, you shouldn't have to deal with a doctor/clinic you don't like on top of it all.
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@spaniellove. Definitely don't hesitate to switch if you are uncomfortable. No reason not to really Hope you are having a great weekend.
I am 14 dpo and bfn. Will stop progesterone and expect af in next couple days.
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@raintreebee: Oh nerts. I'm so sorry.
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@raintreebee: I'm really sorry to hear that. *hugs*
@spaniellove: I also agree that if you aren't feeling the clinic, no reason not to switch. Especially if you do end up liking the other one better! I think it is great that you are checking them both out now - like you said - before you get invested in something.
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@spaniellove: I say go with your gut. I read some online reviews before my appointment too, but really, everyone is so different. So if you have doubts, it's worth it to look around. Hope you had a great road trip this weekend
@raintreebee: HUGS! Sorry to hear you got a BFN.
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AF arrived today, right on schedule. So kind of her to be so punctual, wouldn't you say? Bleh. I hopped right on the phone this AM and scheduled my saline sonogram. Let's get this show on the road and find out what's happening in there and when I can be looking at a baby on sonograms instead of little lumps and stuff!I went to a neighborhood block party this weekend. Kids galore! Meeting new neighbors and answering the question "Do you have any kids?" many times. I did ok, and tried to just enjoy myself. It was fun to meet the neighbors, we're fairly new to the 'hood.
Oh - I also drank a lot. One of the perks, right?
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@sweetooth: I'm sorry about your HSG results.
@spaniellove: Your MIL sounds like a piece of work! I'm sorry you had to go through that.
@MrsCB: congrats on starting Clomid. How's it going?
@raintreebee: I'm sorry about the BFN. I know exactly how you feel. I expected my IUI to work the first time and was shocked and upset when it didn't.I don't have any new news. I'm on CD 10 and I keep forgetting to take my OPKs!
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@Leialou: It's going fine so far. I was afraid I was going to be really hormonal and snappy for days, but I only had that happen once when dealing with a phone rep. My ovaries have been feeling kind of sore, my left one more than my right, but I'm hoping that's a good sign that it's working. I took the last pill yesterday, and I'll have an ultrasound Wednesday to check on the follies. With any luck we'll be able to trigger that night :).
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@raintreebee: ugh I'm so sorry.
@spaniellove: I agree with the others about switching clinics - now's the time to do it before you're in too far
@sweetooth: bummer about AF, but yay for drinking, haha!AF came for me yesterday, so now I'm (nervously) looking forward to my CD3 blood work tomorrow!
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@alie: @raintreebee: @sweetooth: Thanks! Looking at their paperwork, I'm afraid they might make us do a 4th SA if no one tested for anti-sperm antibodies or hypo-osmotic swelling. We both groaned when we saw that! They actually asked: "Do you need the assistance of your partner to produce a specimen?"
@raintreebee: I am so so sorry....
@sweetooth: Sorry AF showed up; sometimes the only good thing about her is that it means you can move forward with your testing, which means you can move forward with the grand plan. It is absolutely not the way you pictured doing a sonogram, but it will bring you that much closer to the special day you're back in there looking at a baby!
@Leialou: Thanks...to add insult to injury MIL totally ignored me after I wrote to remind her that she had done this to us years ago and that we were still hurting after that loss.
@shutterbug: Good luck with your b/w tomorrow!
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I tried calling the clinic today to find out the most recent SA results, and they told me they couldn't give me DH's results because he never signed the HIPAA form. What?! We filled out everything they gave us online and I remember this being part of it. As a precaution, I had him call during the day and they told me then maybe they'd call him tomorrow. But they asked me if he'd seen the urologist yet, which tipped me off that the results probably weren't any better than the previous 2 SAs.
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@spaniellove: that sounds frustrating! I would think that you two, together, are a patient and that his information could/should be shared with you. Also - maybe they were just asking a typical question about the urologist? I hope you can get the results soon.
Oh - and how awkward of a question to be asked..."Do you need the assistance of your partner to produce a specimen?" Hope you don't have to do a 4th SA...you would think that this most recent one could carry over if you do make the switch.
Thanks for the sweet words
I am trying to take comfort in knowing that each test brings me closer. @MrsCB: glad to hear things are going well!
@Shutterbug: good luck with the b/w tomorrow!
@trailmix: You doing ok? thinking about you
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So I'm a bit confused... Last week just before I started acupuncture I had tons of EWCM (good, but a bit early). I was expecting to O tomorrow, but just about all of my EWCM has dried up, and my OPK was negative. I'm usually pretty regular, so this is odd (and I'm pretty sure I didn't O early).
Anyone have any experience with acupuncture delaying O even when cycles are normal lengths?
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@Mrs.Someone: I did acupuncture, and it didn't change my cycle at all.... Are you doing the herbs, too?
@Shutterbug: Good luck with your bloodwork!
So sorry I've been MIA lately, as usual. Life has been NUTS. We have been traveling back and forth all up and down&&side to side of California. In the last three weeks, just on the weekends, we've done around 2 thousand miles. Plus, we've had a death in the family. Lastly TTC has been nuts lately...I'll spare you the details, but I am on day 4 of Clomid today! I go in for a follicle scan on Halloween. If I'm not overstimmed then we have the go ahead to BD. Has anyone heard of being overstimmed on Clomid 50 mg?
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Argh! Why do I test early?!?! I wasn't going to POAS until Thursday but I caved this morning and tested at 10DPO...BFN of course, and now I am discouraged. Of course it's too early to know...many ladies don't get BFPs until 12 DPO or later. Why do I do this to myself! End rant!
@Mrs.Someone: Sorry, I don't know about acu lengthening normal cycles. I had experienced very short cycles (probably immature follicles), so I have been doing acu and Clomid both, which has helped lengthen my cycle but that was the intention. I don't know if I had just been doing acu what would have happened to my cycles. Good luck!
@ChuckNorris: I have not heard of overstimming on just 50 mg, so hopefully you get a good chance this cycle!
@Shutterbug: Good luck!
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@raintreebee: I am so very sorry about last cycle! Hoping this cycle is the lucky one!
@MrsCB: hoping you have some good sized follies!
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Hello all! I've stalked for quite awhile, but now as I am on to cycle 8 and go into my OB/GYN for some answers Thursday I figured why not join?!
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