I'd like to introduce myself over here. I finally starting testing tomorrow to see why we're having so much trouble conceiving #2. We've been trying since May 2013, and my DH really wanted to take a laid back approach and not drive ourselves crazy, so I went with that. Then I had some back complications, so I was scheduling cortisone injections and RF nerve ablations around the first week of my period, and had to take a couple of months off this Spring to have more procedures / recovery time for my back.

It only took us 3 months to conceive our LO (he's 2.5), so I kept trying to convince myself that the failed cycles this time were just stress, or bad timing, but I've also had 2 CPs, and no success and it's been over a year.

My new OB scolded me for not coming to her sooner, esp since I'm of "advanced maternal age". She wants to do CD3 blood work (that's tomorrow) and go from there. I have no idea what to expect, since we had no issues the first time.

I sort of feel like a fraud calling this secondary IF since so many of you have struggled with so much more for so much longer, but this has been emotionally hard for me. I can't talk to my friends about it, because DH is uncomfortable with people he knows knowing about our sex life, and no one else I know has had these problems anyhow.

Getting my period this week was especially hard because I thought we had timed things perfectly, I would have tested today and DH's birthday is tomorrow (and mine is Sunday), so it would have been an awesome birthday present. And now I have my period for our birthdays, I'll be 37 on Sunday, and the damn adorable Duchess of Cambridge is expecting her 2nd. I heard that on the radio the day I got my period this week, and for some reason it was the straw that broke the camel's back. I just cried.

DH doesn't really understand. He's not stressed. He says "it will happen, just relax". Boys. They just don't get it. He's 4 years younger, and doesn't understand why I'm stressed.

Sorry for the novel. I just needed to vent and find somewhere to talk to other people who understand. I apologize to those of you who have struggled a lot longer. I don't mean to sound whiny or ungrateful for the child I do have, I'm just really having a hard week.

Thanks for listening!