I’m having a total pity party for myself. I know I have tons to be thankful for, but I just need to wallow for a minute.

DH has an extremely demanding job (tenure-track professor at top school). I have a demanding job as well (doctor), but work part-time. We have 2 kids – a 3.5 year old son and 18 month old daughter. I work part-time so I can do most of the household stuff and DH can work as hard as he needs.

I’m just having one of those days when I feel like I’m making myself nuts, but satisfying no one. DH had to work late, so I had to pick up the kids from day care. I am usually available to go back to the hospital at the end of the day, but couldn’t today. So, my boss was not so happy. I feel like some of my patients get annoyed that I’m not in the office all the time, so they can’t reach me every day. I had a crazy day in the office and I barely got out in time to pick up my kids from daycare. I feel judged by my parents for working so much, even though they’re the ones who wanted me to be a doctor in the first place. And I feel bad that after such a crazy day, I have very little patience left to deal with my 3 year old, let alone my messy house. And I am exhausted and still have piles of work to do. And whenever I vent to DH about these crappy days, I feel like he can’t believe how much I complain when I only work part-time.

Anyway, I’m just having a mom/career fail day, I guess. I know I’m lucky I work part-time and that I have the flexibility to say no to my boss. I’m sure a lot of you full-time WOHM have similar feelings about falling short in your lives. Congratulations if you read this whole thing – thanks for letting me vent.