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How's everyone doing? I think we've got a few people in the TWW - hope it's speeding by for you all!

I'm due to O on Saturday if things go as predicted. It's supposed to be dark and dreary all week though, and I really just want to catch up on sleep!

Posting on behalf of @kaohinani:
“I haven't logged on in 4/5 mos. I am STILL not pregnant (after 4 years on Valentine's Day 2020) ... actually I have a huge cyst (right ovary, AGAIN) atm and I turn 40 next month. Super depressing. Our insurance doesn't cover IUI or IVF so IDK if I will continue trying after my cyst resolves. I feel so alone and lost (* and extremely sad) but I know I am not... infertility affects so many of us. That stated, I wanted to share with you that I have followed the entire podcast you sent me (and beyond) ... just recently, one of the fitness influencers on the blog fell pregnant ( https://www.today.com/today/amp/tdna172661) and while I am extremely happy for her, I am even more sad for myself as I am older than her and have been trying 2x as long. I greatly appreciate that you introduced me to Infertile AF. Part of me wants to rejoin the board but I am paralyzed as everyone I struggled to conceive with has conceived (you, Lazb, Sam's Mom [who I super miss, along with you], Jessiemuller88, and MrsJBEEG). I haven't checked in HB in months because I am absolutely lost. I do want you to know that I still think of you all and I thank every one of you for any support.”

@paranundrum: I’m pretty sure @SamsMom has her email and communicates with her that way. I don’t think she’s logging in to HB very often but you could try to wall her.

@lemonfrombluebell: I have 40-45 day cycles and no PCOS. We did IVF due to male factor but was able to easily get pregnant both times!

@lemonfrombluebell: I know, I can’t believe it’s February already I’m right there with you, glad ovulation finally happened! Fingers crossed for a bfp this week, but if not, with testing, a plan always gives me some reassurance!

@yellowbeach: I think of kaohinani: often, she was such an encouraging and knowledgeable presence as I took baby steps back into HB. That message is so raw and real. Please send her my best.

@lemonfrombluebell: good luck with poas tomorrow!

@paranundrum: when is your next appointment?

No real updates from me. Still juggling dtd and my wonky work schedule. On a positive note, I finally took the leap to put in a shift bid to move to days or evenings. Wish me luck! If I'm approved, I won't be working overnights any more by May!

@paranundrum: wishing you an awesome appointment with good news! Friday is so close

@paranundrum: ugh, I’m sorry to hear about the work thing. I’m really hoping you get good news on Friday, and that a transfer won’t line up with the work commitment

@MoonMoon: Fingers crossed the shift change happens! Are you hoping to make a switch for ttc reasons, or something else?

Annnddd negative. Womp womp.

I’m only ten dpo, but I got a bright positive at 9 dpo for my son, so it feels over for me. I’m working on my positive attitude but it makes me so sad. I got an evap this morning (took another test right after) and that feels especially cruel.

Anyways! Onwards and upwards, right? I’ll be over here online shopping my sadness away.

@chypmunk: woot woot! that’s not even a squinter, that’s a pretty line!

@chypmunk: yes!!! Stick stick stick!

@paranundrum: hey, thinking of you today and hoping good news comes at this appointment

@paranundrum: That sucks! I had the same issue the first cycle after my retrieval. Subsequent cycles they had me do vaginal estrogen in addition to oral. I hope next month is the month for you!

@chypmunk: yay! Beautiful line!

@lemonfrombluebell: I'm sorry about your negative. I know how disappointing it is, and trying to maintain optimism is hard. Did you retest...?

@paranundrum: yay to a break from needles, and best wishes on next month!

My DH's visit to the urologist yielded a diagnosis of varicocele, which I'd never heard of, but the urologist says addressing it can reverse infertility pretty quickly, in the absence of other factors. Unfortunately the solution he offered was surgery and DH is understandably wary to jump in. I'm trying to be supportive and at the same time I'm seeing a timeline of months and months and the clock that's ticking in my head just keeps getting louder and louder. On the one hand having a diagnosis and possible solution is a relief. On the other, it means I can't really keep up hope that we'll somehow magically conceive any time soon.

@skiierchck99: that's how I feel!
I'll have to check with insurance for the specific procedure, but so far all our tests and consults have been covered, which I'm really grateful for. DH is nervous, because the Dr mentioned general anesthesia and a 2 week recovery, which does sound serious. But at the same time, I'm like... this sounds like an actual solution?