I have a lot going on right now (life, relationship, kids) and not in a good way. I know my lack of sleep definitely is a main factor in my bad days (today, can you tell?) and I go to my family doc Monday for DS's 4m appt.

I quit bf'ing LO1 at 4m, I felt at my worst then with her, don't think it's any coincidence this time around. I had a crap time with my MIL after #1 that I got worse about around the 4m mark, I wrecked some friendships and wasn't a great person to be around. I totally feel I'm sending myself that way again and don't even care to fix it.

It's hard to talk to DH, friends, Mom about any of what I'm feeling, I hate thinking and feeling a lot of what's gone through my head, hard to be at a point where I signed up for this and all I want to do is walk away, bleh.

I'm not looking for any pity, the above more a rant. Did anyone experience pp stuff later on (like 4m?) and how did you come through it? Anything...