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@ocean81: thank you! I am so happy - this week was the longest EVER!

@Nutella: so happy for you!!!! I know the last week must have been hard waiting between scans. It was all worth it though, so amazing that baby has caught up! Wishing you smith sailing for the rest of the pregnancy. @winniebee: always thinking of you. Best wishes as you complete your NIPT draw.

@delight: thank you so much xx

@AprilFool: aww hello fellow downunder! Thank you for your well wishes! Hope you're going well with your now two little ones

@nana87: whoa I didn't even think to check but I'm also pretty close to our loss anniversary also! I think it's kinda cool timing though, like a sign from the universe

36w...you're nearly there!! How exciting!!

I know this thread is old and most people on it have had their babies already. Anyone interested in reviving it?

How Far Along Currently: Almost 5 weeks

EDD: Jan 16

Loss History: D&E at 10 weeks and a CP at around 5 weeks

Next Milestone: At this point I feel like making it to the next day still pregnant is the next milestone. I'm switching doctors and still waiting for the office to call back to set up a first appointment.

Current Fears: After two losses and no healthy pregnancies yet, I'm feeling fairly detached - like two lines doesn't have much connection to a healthy baby. I think I'd prefer not to think about it much, but symptoms are starting to hit (hello crushing exhaustion), which is making that more difficult. I'd also like to get this whole doctor thing sorted out so that if something goes wrong, at least I have a doctor to call. This is right around the time where I started developing complications (an SCH) with my first non-viable pregnancy.

@periwinklebee: Hugs and good luck to you! I'm not in this group anymore but I had a similar situation to yours (D&C at 12 weeks followed by chemical) and my next pregnancy was a successful one (he is 5 months now). Actually, my first successful pregnancy was also after a loss. I never found out a reason for my losses and the journey was incredibly hard but in the end it worked out. So sorry you are dealing with this and I wish you the best. Definitely take it one day at a time and don't feel guilty if you are not connecting to your pregnancy right now. I didn't either for really any of my pregnancies after that first loss, until much later on once I was a little more certain that I'd eventually meet my baby.

How far along currently: 22 weeks
EDD: September 15* I suspect this will change
Loss History: lost baby at. 24 weeks last July.
Next milestone: My GD test

I've been taking this pregnancy one day at a time. It's been hard because I've literally had to retake every single test at least twice (dating scans, NIPT, NT scan, anatomy scan) and so I've been extremely nervous about the whole thing. Especially approaching 24 weeks this time.

@Nutella: Thank you It definitely can be isolating. I'm so happy to have hellobee, as I haven't found that kind of support IRL and I think I would feel so isolated without this community.

@Nutella: Thank you! I think it's so true... this whole process has definitely changed my perspective on a lot of things.

@winniebee: I'm really glad you found a group of people through your hospital with more understanding of what you've gone through. I think the TTC experience has made me much more sensitive to the fact that there are things other people are going through that I just don't begin to understand. I can't really imagine life before the internet, as finding support IRL can be tough.

@endymion4: I'm so sorry about your losses. That sounds difficult about deciding when to let your daughter know. This is #1 for us, so I don't have much insight, but I'm sure there are others here who have gone through something similar.

@winniebee: couldn't agree more!
I definitely feel like the innocence was taken, even though I never really took my LO's pregnancy for granted I am always that little bit more aware of how fragile this whole process is. And people who justify that if it's earlier it doesn't count, I found those conversations hard too...like I wasn't allowed to grieve because the loss was so early.
I'm forever grateful for the community on here though!

@periwinklebee: the u/s was....meh. The tech said she got everything she needed but didn't say much else. I passed over the quad screen and just had the AFP draw done on Tuesday, which will take a week to come back. I decided to call my OB and ask about the u/s results and the OB just called me to tell me that an echogenic bowel was discovered. I have a follow-up u/s next Thursday. He thinks it's not likely to be indicative of CF or trisomy, since I screened negative as a CF carrier and the NIPT results came back 1/10,000 for trisomies. It's unclear to me whether they will do more blood tests to look for infection or if the MFM will push for an amnio.

I feel worried and miserable and DS was sent home with stomach flu today. I feel locked in to at least another week of physical and emotional suffering. I don't know that this pregnancy will ever bring me joy, even as desperately as I want this baby.

@azjax: I'm so so sorry. My heart just sunk to read this, you've been through enough already. Thinking of you as you wait for the follow up. I don't know anything about what they saw but maybe someone here has had a similar experience. I know it really sucks now but at least don't feel guilty about not enjoying it. Be as kind to yourself as you can. We are all thinking of you.

@azjax: I'm so sorry you're going through this. Will be thinking of you!

I guess I'm going to jump in here. Finding out we are expecting again has been much harder than I anticipated.

How Far Along Currently: 5 weeks

EDD: January 23 based on LMP but I think I ovulated a little later.

Loss History: Lost a baby girl in February at 16 weeks

Next Milestone: Honestly, just trying to survive each day. My emotions are all over the place and I'm wondering if we should have waited longer before trying again. I fluctuate between trying to ignore the pregnancy in order to protect myself & telling myself to love & enjoy this baby as long as we have it.