Hi everyone. I'm generally on the sidelines reading but something has been weighing heavily on my mind and I don't know who else to turn to, this being such a private subject.

I have a two-year-old and I have no doubt that I want to give him a sibling. The problem is, I am afraid to TTC. I had a miscarriage and a cystectomy before I had my son, and even the pregnancy itself was a bumpy ride. The last time I had regular periods was before I got pregnant. Now, my periods range from 30-40 days. I have partially charted my temperature the last two cycles--I never finish charting because I don't see a significant rise in the temp, at least not as significant as the ones I had before getting pregnant with my son. All of these things point to difficulties ahead for our TTC journey, and I don't know how to reconcile my desire to have another baby with the fear of disappointment, especially since I have a two-year-old to take care of.

Any of you ladies feel or have felt similarly? How do you/did you deal with it?

Thanks!