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@delight: I'm not feeling very positive either. 16 dpo and mine is 94. I know they say not to put too much stock into it, but it's hard to not worry.

Still waiting for the doctor to call. I'm sure they'll want me to go back tomorrow....

@delight: For what it's worth, my doctor's office told me they wanted to see a 55% increase in 48 hours rather than doubling.

@Shantuck: thank you. I like your doctor! Haha. I have a 70% increase I believe in 48 hours so that makes me feel better.

Progesterone is 38.1 6DPI/7dpIUI. I had an ovidrel booster to help progesterone. So now more waiting.

@NorthStar: thanks. I did femara 5mg/ovidrel trigger and booster. It was 48 last time. I don't think the lower level matters since it's still in range. I had two follicles so that should have raised it. I dont have a good feeling but we will see.

@LoveHope: Yes, I went this morning! Went to a different Henry Ford clinic and got my results back within hours instead of having to wait until tomorrow. It's up from 94 to 233! The nurse was very happy. Says she wants me to do one more on Monday. Based on those results, I'll either continue blood work or they'll schedule me for my first ultrasound.

@KrzyRiver: Great!

My new niece was born today, so I just got home from the hospital. Only my mom knows, and it was so hard. They had to pick a name that I liked as well. DH doesn't like it as well, so that made it a little easier. I'm 7DPO, and I don't have a good feeling. I might be just trying to protect myself.

@KrzyRiver: that's so great!! Yay!

I wrote out a long response and HB ate it. Grrrr.

@agold: I don't have a POAS date yet either, I'm just hanging out on here for now.

@KrzyRiver: @delight: FX for you both!

@NorthStar: ugh, I spend a lot of time thinking about the unfairness of it all right now. I really hope you get your baby soon.

@AmeliaBedilia: that's a great P number! I understand how hard pretending to be happy is. I am so sorry.

My family is frustrating me. I think they expect me to be over losing the baby by now and ready to act normal. It's not as hard of the fog of the first week, but that doesn't make any of it easy. They never struggled or had losses, so it's hard for them to relate.

My HPT today was EXTREMELY light, possibly just an evap, and I had a significant line on my OPK. Yay!

@LoveHope: @AmeliaBedilia: @Crystal: @sslm: @doxielove: Thanks ladies!

@Crystal: I'm sorry luv. When I had my first loss, my family was supportive because they were grieving too, but everyone else seemed to act like it was no big deal. They just don't get it if they haven't experienced it. But you take all the time you need to grieve your loss. *Hugs*

@doxielove: Lol! I kept trying to wrack up good karma too! When someone would tell me there were expecting, I'd be like "Don't be jealous, you don't need to bring any bad juju on yourself." Lol. So I've tried (and mostly failed) to be good about all that.

@Crystal: Thanks for letting me know you are hanging out here. I will try to get caught up on this thread over the weekend. I'm sorry about your loss and your family's lack for full understanding of your feelings. That's really tough. I hope you can feel comfortable to heal at your own pace.

@Crystal: take as long as you need to grieve! It's hard for people to understand, especially if nothing like this has happened to them. I'm glad it seems like
Your body is getting back on track!
@KrzyRiver: awesome betas!
@AmeliaBedilia: we are all rooting for you this month!

I'm in beta hell. My 15dpo beta of 306 went to 579 on 17dpo. This was a better increase. But why can't I just have nice, doubling numbers? Ugh.

@agold: @doxielove: @AmeliaBedilia: @KrzyRiver: @LoveHope: @delight: @sslm: I'm trying to not put much on them, but when they ask I'm honest. i think to them it's much more concept then feeling an actual loss. I appreciate they are trying, but this can be very isolating. I appreciate all of you so much. Even when there isn't anything To say, a virtual hug helps a lot. I'm sorry if I missed tagging anyone, I'm posting from my phone. Oh, and I had a definite negative on my HPT today!!! Progress!!

@doxielove: that's so great! I hope karma turns good for you!

@KrzyRiver: i hate when people say that! Because I'm sure all those people in less than ideal situations get KU they are so worried about karma. That said, I totally admit to trying to be positive just in case they are right. (Hypocrite,
Table of 1!)

@NorthStar: fx for you! Are you on any clomid? Or is this unmedicated? When do you normally O?

@agold: I'm so glad to see you on here. ️

@AmeliaBedilia: I'm keeping my fingers crossed so hard for you! I hope the protocol tweaks will help. ️

@delight: fx for you! Beta doubling is hell. When is your first scan?

@NorthStar: we have to wait two cycles to try (including this one), then an additional cycle before we can get clomid. If all goes according to plan, hopefully December. Could be next year if this takes too long.

Fx for you! Do you have infertility coverage on your insurance?

Quickly popping in to say hi to all...

@AmeliaBedilia: When is your beta? Will you test at home before then?

@Crystal: Woot!! Yay for negative test! (So counterintuitive to say that when ttc...!) Hopefully your next few cycles won't be too wonky so that you can get back on clomid asap!

On a whim, I temped today- 97.92, 12DPO, which means I'm probably not pregnant.

I'm really having a tough day. I'm afraid this will be a negative and two negative IUIs make me worry about IVF, and what if we can never have kids? Next cycle is probably out because of my trip, unless my period holds off til Friday. I keep praying to be pregnant, but I need to pray for either pregnancy or that DH and I change happy without kids. This is so hard!

@ms.line: Thanks. Having biological kids is very important to both of us. We are open to a surrogate if necessary, but if we can't have a biological child, we will probably not have kids. I'm trying to convince myself that early retirement and travel is just as good, but I'm not there.

@LibbyLou: @AmeliaBedilia: I came here to add my POAS date, but I see you girls are talking about something much more serious that has also been weighing heavily on my heart. @AmeliaBedilia: I know how you are feeling as I was where you are currently at just a few months ago. This IVF is (at least as of now) the end of the line for me. My husband only wants biological kids and I knew this before marrying him. I, on the other hand, would adopt every child of every age from every corner of the earth. But we are currently very happy without kids, so I'm trying to keep that in the forefront of my mind. If IVF doesn't work, I'll hopefully have some frozen embryos to try. And if that doesn't work... we will need to be happy with the two of us. Its hard to wrap my head around because for probably the first time in my life, I'm able to stay focused on the here and now. Its really hard for me to even look ahead to tomorrow. @LibbyLou: minds definitely do change over time. I'm also in the camp of "cross that bridge when we get there." Good luck to both of you girls!