I'm so upset with DH right now. He went out with his dad today to watch a rugby game and then have a few drinks to celebrate his dad's 60th birthday. He left here at midday, leaving me with DD all day and evening yet again.

To be fair, DH very rarely goes out to have fun. He is usually working.... and it is his dad's birthday..... but as he was leaving earlier he mentioned that his friend would be joining them and he would also be paying for all his friend's drinks because his friend is broke. Erm, we're broke! I'm on maternity leave and our budget is very, very tight....

Anyway, it's now 11.20pm and he's still not home. I text him earlier to ask if he was having fun (read: see what time he thought he might be home) and he replied that he was very drunk. Ugh. I asked if his dad was still out and he said no! He's out with friends.

I'm really pissed off with him.

I went out last night with my friend - I left AFTER DD's bath/bedtime and I was home by midnight, having spent just £13.99 on a bottle of wine for us to share. That's all. I came home and did the night feeds, like I always do. DH has been out for almost 12 hours and is really drunk. God only knows how much of our money he has spent. He will be snoring loudly tonight (he wakes DD up with his snoring in the next room) and I will put money on him being hung over to heck tomorrow and, once again, I will be looking after DD. Oh and did I mention that he shouldn't even be drinking on his medication??

Talk me down, Bees! I feel like going off at the deep end at him when he gets in. I'm SHAKING right now and feel sick (I feel really anxious, I'm not sure why).