I have to go meet with my boss today. I am so anxious I could puke. I hate confrontation and I just hate this whole situation.

Going through the process of deciding to quit made me realize that although I love the work I was doing, I was miserable working there. They offered me a raise to come back, but I don't think that makes up for the rest of the crap I've had to deal with there.

I can't just quit out right because they let me know they were not happy with me quitting after using the sick leave fund. I know they do to have any legal basis to ask me to repay them, but I feel like I have to go back to work for a little bit at least. They also let me know I couldn't WAH indefinitely and that they would rehire in January.

So I guess I'm just going to WAH for a few months and then quit/be let go and SAH. I will miss the job (not the office) a lot but I'm not going to look for work right away. It'll be good to be at home with the boys for a while. Things are just so hectic right now with them being close in age that I don't think it makes sense to jump into a new job.

I just feel UGH about this all around. I think work will hate me, yet I have to keep working there. I think trying to WAH will be crazy with two very little ones and I will be miserable for the next few months. I'm mad at myself for railroading my career.

Gahhhh. Sorry for the vent. Just so stressed about it. I don't even know if any of this made sense!