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@LCTBQE: much love to you.

@LCTBQE: I'm o' ing one of these days but have been on holiday until last night (without DH) so we have only had one go so far! Not sure if we will get that lucky with timing but will see. Had been nice taking a break from the heavy scrutiny of the last few cycles...so that's a relief. Plus spent the last week swimming in the sea so I feel like new! Glad you'll be chatting with doctor soon!

@jaguar: I'm so incredibly sorry. I know you want nothing more than to just move on. Be good to yourself. Wine, ice cream etc.

@jaguar: I'm so sorry. That has to be incredibly frustrating.

I feel like everyone in the world is pregnant and so very oblivious about it, which I know is unfair for me to think, and it's probably MY attitude that needs to change, but dammit I wish people could just be... quietly pregnant. I feel like if we ever do successfully conceive I am going to never talk about it to people other than my husband and my healthcare providers, because of the way I feel now.

Today is CD8 for me so I'm going to try to kick of SMEP even with houseguests. Not temping this month and I have no OPKs so I'm just going to assume that I'll ovulate when I usually do.

@MrsDragon: yep. My friends mainly talk abt being pregnant or having multiple children now. I would like to step back from everyone for awhile, but dd asks for her friends and obviously she doesn't understand.

@MrsDragon: I feel the same. It breaks my heart that pregnancy has become such a touchy subject for me, because that's all we want so much. I am legitimately scared we won't get to experience it again.

@Nutella: I've been wondering where you were in your cycle (what a weird thing to say)--but you're so busy being here for everyone else, I wasn't sure swimming in the ocean and not freaking out about all this shit sounds so, so dreamy. Hope that the timing is lucky/easy/stress free for you this month. As for me, no news. I missed the call from my OB tonight because I was talking to my boss, and didn't even care. small victories.

@jaguar: I am so sorry this can't just be over for you already. I had no idea the numbers could actually go up--if there is any trace amount of tissue left, is there any hope that your next period would clear it out? (or does any number above 0 prevent a period?--sorry, I'm learning as I go ). Really hoping this crap situation resolves itself for you, immediately. I know I haven't spoken to you much, but I've seen many posts you've written the past few months--I have so much hope for you that you'll have a successful go again soon

@MrsDragon: I'm even annoyed with people who ARE quietly pregnant, which is both ugly and unreasonable. Pretty sure my SIL is pregnant and not telling me out of sensitivity, which irks me, and even super-great women at work who are *not* trying to draw attention to themselves are annoying me just by putting their hands on their bellies. The only one who I'm really happy for is one that I know had two years of shit-storm troubles herself, and I hate everyone who even LOOKS like they might be due in April. Nice, huh?

Anyway, hoping you can be super stealthy even with parents on premises Do you have an idea which day you'll O yet?

@catlady: thanks for the welcome, and sorry to hear you're also unlucky wow, your co-worker sounds untenable even under the best circumstances SO glad you got your period though--what a relief.

@delight: I can't imagine living with the situation with your brother and his wife. you sound so incredibly strong.

@jaguar: what!?! Have you talked to your dr yet?

@delight: That is SO hard. I know some of what you feel. I got pregnant almost exactly a year ago (after an HSG) and lost it at 5 weeks, so technically a chemical. My cousin got pregnant right after and had a baby about a month after mine would've been due. I love her to pieces (she's like my sister) and her sweet baby, but it's so hard because I would've loved having kids close in time to hers. I'm so bitter about it at times. And I just know my sister in law (who I loathe) is going to get knocked up any moment.

It's so darn unfair. This is our first Clomid cycle and I'm 7 dpo and I just feel like I'm out. I have zero symptoms. We're staying at home for Thanksgiving - we live about 7 hours away from family and I'm so grateful I don't have to deal with them right now.

@MrsDragon: I went offline after the big miscarriage last year. Left all the groups, basically hibernated. It was too, too hard. Sometimes a bit of space can really help your mental health.

@delight: I'm going to ask my specialist today when I speak to them. *sigh*

I hear you, chick. G is 2y8m. This kid is going to be practically a teenager **IF** we get pregnant to term again.

Next step for me is bloods on Tuesday, and if they are hovering or not coming down, they'll go back to FS and consult for something else to help.

@MrsDragon: I hear you. I'm the same.

@Zbug: not ovulated earlier but did get more patches of EWCM that usual. Do hopefully that's the same for you!

@jaguar: good luck for Tuesday. Hopefully they know what to do

@MrsDragon: I ended up biting the bullet and going to visit a counsellor & she has been amazing! Just to talk it out to someone who doesn't try and advise or judge...it's refreshing actually.

I've been reading up on b12 deficiency and infertility/miscarriage -- I'm chronically deficient and I know my levels were low as of last year, and I haven't supplemented since then. Gonna start taking tablets again, and if my bloodwork comes back low, as I suspect it will because I have been effing EXHAUSTED lately, I don't know if I should ask about investigating why, exactly, my b12 has been off for almost 10 years.

@MrsDragon: My b12 came back as extremely low this last week, so I have to have weekly booster shots until they're back to normal. And not ONE person picked it up at my IVF clinic with all their bloodwork...my regular GP did.

@MrsDragon: I know! Not one person mentioned checking vitamin levels to me... and this was miscarriage #3. I know realistically our losses are more based on dodgy embryos.. but shoudn't they be checking EVERYTHING just in case? Sigh.

I have to have further blood serum testing to see if I have any problems with absorbing the B12.. if that's the case, I'll probably need the shots long-term. (Joy!)

Hope everyone survived Thanksgiving. I was doing great until DH's grandfather asked me if DD was going to get a brother or sister. At first, I wasn't sure what he was asking, and then he pointed at my stomach and said wasn't there a little one in there? I tried to laugh it off and said I wasn't pregnant but he kept at it. I finally had to tell him that we lost the baby. This all happened while DD was with me (she hadn't known I was pregnant and I hope she didn't understand) and in front of several cousins who are not close to us.

The kicker is, we never told him in the first place. I think MIL or SIL broke our trust and then forgot to tell him about the loss. Sigh. Glad the holiday is over.

@catlady: Oh that sounds awful. Lots of hugs to you.

@MrsDragon: good for you for making it happen! and that's so great that the m/c's haven't messed up your cycle and you can still rely on it.
PS: would you link to a b12 article you've read that helped you? always looking for something to fix over here.

@catlady: that sounds annihilating... it's hard to get angry at a grandparent, but I'm mad on your behalf. so sorry you had to go through that, it sounds like a script version of what we are all dreading over the holidays

I had some lite doses of why-aren't-you-pregnant-yet, coupled with 4 days of non-stop discussion of all my in-laws' babies and their conquests with breastfeeding and walking. happy to be home; I think I would have seriously rather been chained to my desk at work the entire time.

@LCTBQE: pS: sorry too about the painful conversations regarding babies & pregnancy status

I just got a faint positive at 10 dpo. In the past I've waited until I miss my period to call my doctor, but I'm itching to call early. They are usually pretty booked, and if I could get an early scan it would be amazing. Last time I ant even booked for an ultrasound until almost 9 weeks, and if I hadn't made a big deal about my spotting I might not have even found out about the m/c until then. I don't want to have to wait that long. Even Blood tests would help me calm down at this point.
Would you guys call or wait longer.