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@JoJoGirl: Congrats!!!

@JoJoGirl: Hurray! So happy for you. Sending lots of good wishes.

I'm 6dpo-ish and trying to not panic yet... I feel crampy but I'm only 6dpo, hah! I don't know how to strike a balance between being hopeful and being too realistic.

@JoJoGirl: Wonderful news! Congratulations!

@Silva: That's great! Sending good vibes your way!

@Silva: Yay!!

@delight: Yay for a period. Is it weird that I'm jealous????

@Silva: Awesome news!!!

I got a squinter today at 9dpo! Not sure when this will feel real. I'm going to call the NP Monday and ask for a Friday appointment.

@MrsDragon: yay!!!! Best of luck to you!

Okay, ladies. I need help again. I just got a super faint line on a frer at 13dpo. The thing is, I feel like it's lighter than the line I got at 10dpo with my mmc and last month at 12dpo with my CP. I know every pregnancy is different, but I feel like this isn't a good sign. Experiences?

@Mrs. Champagne: thanks. Pretty sure abt dpo (used opks) but will see! How are you doing?

@catlady: thanks! I just asked this question on the main boards as well - bc I'm apparently now a crazy person. I will probably call dr on Monday if no AF.

@Zbug: I'm good. 11 weeks and have an ultrasound on the 23. Cannot wait... If that one is good I'll feel a lot of relief. I'm still so nervous!

I'm officially going off Facebook now. Three announcements in two days, and I'm done. Can't even pretend to handle it anymore.

Thank you everyone. I'm still kind of in shock and having some survivors guilt so to speak. Resisted the urge to buy a bunch of tests today.

@jaguar:

@jaguar: I'm sorry. Facebook is the worst.

Love the happy news on here. Sometimes when I'm on a good day it's hard for me to get on this thread bc I feel so sad for everyone else.

@jaguar I'm off it too, it sucks.

@jaguar: @LibbyLou: agreed, FB is garbage. Since the miscarriages I've also quit Instagram, and I don't miss it.

As I thought would happen, my SIL told me yesterday that she was pregnant again, and her due date is a couple of days before my would-have-been due date with m/c #2. Reminded of of a very, very diet-version of what happened to @delight. It really got to me and I'm dreading spending the holidays with my extended family celebrating the pregnancy. Same jam as always: I want to be happy for her, but I'm too busy feeling like someone punched me in the chest.

It's easy to feel so much genuine joy for those of you here who are having success, but in real life, it's kind of like, I'd appreciate it if time would freeze while I get pregnant, and only then will it be okay for everyone else to proceed. So, I'm insane

@LCTBQE: You're not insane. I've felt the same way before. Only add in the Infertility part as well as the miscarriages making me sad.. because not being able to get pregnant naturally limits our chances of it ever happening for us again.

@LCTBQE: ah crap I'm sorry. It is so hard when it is friends who share similar due dates but with family it's almost unbearable. Honestly I'll never recover from our blow. My relationship with my bro and SIL will never be the same. I will try to put on a happy face this Christmas and I know you will too. But it's ok to be hurt and jealous on the inside. Wine helps. And I totally get what you're saying about feeling happy for everyone here who gets pregnant, but anyone else in real life gets the stink eye from me!

This Saturday marks the one year anniversary of losing Ava. I was positive I would be pregnant again by this Christmas. Ugh.