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@Shantuck: I'm so, so sorry you're going through this. I had a D&C for m/c #1, and I was terrified. It wasn't bad at all, and it's good to have it all be over with. Doesn't make it easier, of course.

@LCTBQE: congratulations! I'm really happy for you (sorry!) and crossing all my fingers and toes that it sticks. I totally understand feeling unattached. Its self preservation. I can't even think about being pregnant without getting stressed and anxious, so I've just been avoiding thoughts of it. I still feel a sense of impending doom. At some point I really want to be able to celebrate and feel excited, but I'm not sure when that feeling will come.

@LCTBQE: so so so many sticky thoughts for you!!

@Shantuck: oh I am so so so sorry. My heart breaks for anyone here who has to go through this multiple times.
Best wishes as you start your recovery. I wish you all the best next time and that 2016 brings a healthy pregnancy.

@LCTBQE: amazing news from you. I am rooting so hard for you. Your numbers are great, your doubling time is fantastic!! stay positive and try to be happy and excited about this pregnancy even though it is hard.

thanks so much for the good wishes, everyone last night my friend in real life who has struggled with IF for years told me, "it sounds harsh, but your fate is sealed". It was such a relief to hear, because I agonize about how this is my fault, what could I do better, etc. It never occurred to me that there's nothing more to do right now.

@Silva: yes to everything you said. self-preservation is a good thing trying to ignore that I feel like a ticking time bomb.

@delight: thank you for the kind words, lady. I'm glad for you guys to get more information about what's going on and eager to hear what they have to say. I do the timelines, too--my big one used to be to have my first child before my next birthday--so I can understand your sense of urgency. they're so arbitrary but they feel so powerful.

@delight: Even though it was tough to hear, getting answers is also oddly comforting. I was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve so I am struggling with poor egg quality. It was tough to swallow but I imagine it would be worse to not know why I was miscarrying. I am comforted in knowing that I have options. I hope you get some answers soon.

@delight: PS--much love to you today. hope you are hanging in there

@Zbug: so glad to hear this. I hope the spotting stops and you can let your shoulders down a little bit.

@Mrs. Champagne:

@Shantuck: this is so hard... I'm very sorry you're going through it. it's remarkable how many of us here have had multiple m/c's in a row. Hoping your d&c goes smoothly and you have a quick recovery

@Shantuck: oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this take good care of yourself this weekend. I too found out on a Friday, but felt so much better after the d&c. Hugs to you

@Zbug: great news about your betas! hang in there. The first few weeks are so tough.

@Nutella: @LCTBQE: thanks ladies. Not going to lie, I'm a mess today. I hope it's not like this every year. Had a good cry with DH this morning and trying to keep busy.

@delight: Lots of hugs to you. xxx

@Zbug: @jaguar: @MrsDragon: thanks ladies. I really appreciate the support.

Much love to all as we get into the heart of the holiday season.

Wow, I just realized that I haven't checked into this thread in a few days and so much has happened with everyone.

@MrsDragon: I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you are doing better today. Hugs.

@Shantuck: Glad to hear you have some answers but I'm so so sorry. I can't imagine that it is much easier either way.

@Zbug: So happy to hear you have some good news!

@LCTBQE: Congrats and best of luck to you! I know it's almost impossible but hope you can try to take it one day at a time and enjoy knowing you are pregnant.

To everyone else, I hope you are all doing ok. It can be so tough around the holidays. I'm pretty sure I just ovulated so we are really hoping this will be a good cycle for us. Just need to get through the two week wait now...

@Zbug: So glad to hear that your numbers are doubling! That is a step in the right direction!

@Shantuck: you are kidding me. I don't know what to say except how incredibly sorry I am. You need a beach vacation. Last month, I realized I was going to miscarry and broke my ankle later that day. Seriously, world? Sending hugs

Can someone please come take my phone so I stop googling ectopic pregnancy? I'm only half joking.

@Zbug: why do you think this might be the case, because of your numbers? I started a thread when I had my own ectopic scare, and a lot of great women (including @Shantuck and @LibbyLou) wrote to tell me about their scare or real ectopic. there's some good info in it:
http://boards.hellobee.com/topic/have-you-had-an-ectopic
The reason why my OBs were worried about me is that my numbers *and* doubling times were bad, and they stalled out around 500-600, which I gather is one way ectopics can act. but your numbers and doubling times have totally snowballed and gotten momentum--there were so many stories I read on HB where people wrote that their initially low numbers took off and now they're holding their baby, etc. Seems like that is you?? Will you be able to go back for another beta for peace of mind?
PS hope your ankle is healing!

@LCTBQE: ergh, we totally got a last minute half-assed invite to some distant family Xmas dinner this week I need a good excuse as to why we can't make it! Tough because I had literally just said we are having a quiet one, so I feel like it's just a pity invite. Haha. Hope you're going okay?

@Zbug: fingers are crossed for you.

@Nutella: well, I think it's plenty that you're moving and have a toddler, but if it's a dinner, maybe you could use that Can't Mess With The Schedule excuse? if you do have to make an appearance, maybe just leave early. christmas can bite me.

and yes, her quote is so reassuring, when I can manage to believe it. yesterday's self-inflicted terror was that maybe natural killer cells from the MTHFR gene mutation are attacking the fetus and that's why I don't have many symptoms yet (4.5 weeks here) and I'm murdering it by taking prenatal vitamins that have folic acid and I should be taking baby aspirin. dfakjlghzzzzzz.

@Zbug: WHERE is the crystal ball? I understand why you're worried, but have hope for you that everything will be fine. I wonder if you can keep an eye on the betas and when they're over 1500 or so, maybe beg for a scan to confirm that the sac is in your uterus? not great timing with the holiday, but I just did the math (I think our numbers were about the same and similar timing?) and you're probably already there, or will be by tomorrow-weds. Don't know how accommodating your OB is, but that would resolve the question.

@LCTBQE: I just read your news! Wishing you all the luck with this pregnancy!!

@Nutella: bowing out sounds like a good idea. If you're not close to them, I think just saying thank you so much for the invite but we aren't going to make it this year should be sufficient.