I'm super stressed and sad right now.
I have to go renew my CPR tomorrow, from 8:15-4:30. That's the longest I've been away from my dd ever - 9.5 months, or 18.5 if you count pregnancy, which I do, because I'm dramatic.
1) I don't want to leave my girl. I'm sure she will be fine as grandma and grandpa are coming to hang out. I'm less sure about me.
2) lots of people at work don't like me.
3) I feel dumber than shit since having a baby. And I wasn't that smart to begin with, so I'm actually scared of failing CPR, the most basic thing about my job.
4) I'm nervous about everyone looking at me and thinking about how fat I got and how shitty I look
5) I will have to pump twice and there is NO WHERE for me to do this in private.

/rant
Just needed somewhere to vent because my husband is off in lala land.