The title says it. This is harder than I thought it would be. I never wanted to be a SAHM, and I know it's for the best. But I'm still so sad. I'm sad that the time of my son's life when I was the only one who ever cared for him is over. I'm sad that he'll spend more awake time at daycare than home. We did a couple shorter trial runs and when I picked him up yesterday he was crying. He was getting his diaper changed, so not that surprising I guess. I know realistically he'll cry, but still. Not very confidence inducing. I like my job and there are parts of me that are looking forward to working again. But ugh, so many complicated feelings. No real point to this, just needed to let it out