Hi all, sorry if this is a bit rambling. Found out last night that I am pregnant with our third! I am only 9 month postpartum from our second son. This was completely and totally unplanned. I really, really, really did not think I was pregnant but decided to take a test just in case. So I am experiencing a LOT of emotions right now because we hadn't even decided if we wanted a third, let alone right now. I spent most of last night crying and feeling horribly guilty for not being happy about this little baby. I am so, so anxious for a variety of reasons, first of all I had a c section with my second so I feel like physically I shouldn't be pregnant so soon (I am NOT going to google anything). I feel like we're going to be stretched thin, financially and emotionally. I feel like I took away my second son's babyhood and that I have no idea how I am going to manage three children. We're going to have to cancel summer vacations we had planned, we're going to need a new car and we're probably going to have to move sooner than we had wanted. I just have a thousand thoughts rolling through my head about how life is going to be different now than what we planned. I know everything will be fine, it's just a lot right now and I am not a "roll with the punches" kind of person.

I am not sure what I am looking for here, probably just to vent and hopefully for someone with three kids to tell me that I will survive. I am not trying to sound ungrateful to be pregnant, because I know a lot of bees have struggled with infertility, I just need to unpack my emotions somewhere and this is a very supportive community.