Hey bees,

First off - thank you all so much for your support and words through my disaster of a marriage last month.

I have to say since all of this happened things have been insanely good!! Even my family has commented that DH has been a different person.

Since we both decided to put the arguement behind us I went to a couple of counselling sessions on my own through my work EAP program which were really helpful for me. I explained I could rationalize things, but she said my actions spoke otherwise. I'm making an effort and I believe that he is, too.

We spent a weekend away last weekend - it was nice. He was amazing and I felt like we were dating again. He was doing things he normally doesn't like to do and never did in 11 years (helping me pick out clothes that look nice? what??) He's also been communicating more with me since everything about progress his mom has made (i.e. paying off other major bills) and while I don't have a date yet, I'm feeling much better about it, especially since he doesn't know how I feel.

We have had several conversations about kids, he's totally into it now and ready for kids so we have been actively trying. I started taking pre-natal vitamins again, along a couple of medications I have to take from my dr (specifically for my anxiety). His brother is expecting and I think that also pushed him a little bit - he's really excited about being an uncle (on his side - I have a niece and two nephews) so he has actually said the words I'm ready let's do this.