I have no idea what topic to put the post under...

Firstly -- we are both ok!

Last night H and I were in an accident that was hard enough to cause my airbags to deploy and spin my car 180 degrees. Firetrucks, ambulance, police cars, the works.

I had just picked H up from my aunt's house and was heading home. I turned east onto the busy main street and was hit by a car traveling west. It was fully dark out and he didn't have his headlights on...I didn't see him until right before the impact.

It was by far the most terrifying experience of my life. Not only have I never been in a car accident before, I was out of my mind horrified that something was wrong with my baby. Thank God and all that is mighty that we are both truly ok.

The EMTs checked H over three times and assured me he was absolutely fine and he has seemed completely normal. He was smiling and laughing at everyone looking over him. I asked both of them if it was their baby, would they take him to the hospital and they both said no. We were worried about exposing him unnecessarily to germs in the ER and so decided to just watch him like a hawk and go to the hospital at any sign whatsoever of anything being "off".

He's been completely normal today so I think we are ok. I, on the other hand, feel pretty beat up. Bruises on my chest and left hip from the seatbelt, burned knees from the airbag that deployed down there, sore ribs and neck. Ugh.

Do you think I should've taken him to the ER anyway? I called the ped office and spoke to an advice nurse who agreed that if he seemed fine, he probably was. I think I'll call and speak to his actual doctor on Monday, though. We are getting a new carseat because even though this one looks fine I know it's not safe anymore. Should we move to a convertible car seat (he was 26.5" and 16.5lbs a month ago) or get another infant car seat?

Ughhhh this was the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. I keep reliving the moment right before the impact and the way it sounded and the way the airbag smelled. The car is totaled. Something else I can't stop thinking about is that even though the other guy didn't have his damn headlights on in the full darkness, because I was the one who pulled onto the street I am more at fault. I did this. It could've been so much worse and it would've been my fault. I'm so profoundly grateful my baby is ok...I don't know what I would do if he wasn't.